Believe nothing, no matter where you read it, or who said it – no matter if I have said it! – except it agree with your own reason and your own common sense.” – Siddhartha Gautama, a.k.a. the Buddha

Just talkin’

slow start morning and a memory

Its the beginning of my weekend and I like to take it easy getting going.   Have found if I start in a huff, things get expensive and with the way prices are, that doesn’t take much.

But I woke slow and was dwelling on a memory of my past.   There was a kid I grew up with that was the seed of my thoughts, though what those thought centered on was “Value” and perceptions; Personal perceptions specifically.   See, this kid was a die-hard comix collector.  He would buy two copies of every X-men comic and all of the various spinoffs.  One was for reading, the other would be bagged and tagged and stored in a footlocker.   After he had read the one ‘for reading’ IT would be bagged, tagged and stored in another footlocker (he had his “A” books and “B” books and each was labeled as such)   Now, that may not seem like a bad thing and it wasn’t: when he went to go to college, he used that second footlocker as collateral for the student loans.  The entire footlocker appraised at well over 20K, and that was his “B” books.

But it was a concept I could never understand.   I don’t know if its the way I was raised, or just that I don’t attach a monetary value to every single thing in my life.   I see value beyond a price tag.   Like with Books: yeah, they cost a certain amount of cash to get, and thats expected, but what do they HOLD inside.  I’ll use “The Hunger Games” for now.   Entertainment, 5 stars.   But there is far more in those books than just entertainment: there are mirrors held up to look at the world from different perspectives, allowing the reader to see things in new light.  They pull back the curtains hiding the ugly side of people, even the good ones.  She mentions frequently that at some point, the decision to kill an ally is going to be forced on Katniss.  That may be an extreme point, but there are actions that every one has to make that are not optimal, and that was one way of showing it.  

Even as entertainment, there are lessons to be learned.   I don’t recall many of the ones from those comix, but I am certain that they are hidden inside, even as I could bet that some of those lessons are closer to indoctrination of Marxist ways.   (said indoctrination is insidious and has been quite dominant for decades).  But the Value is far more than just some arbitrary monetary value assigned by some accountant.  And there are some that are absolutely valueless (IMO) for lack of anything other than escapism, which has some value all its own.    Me personally, I want to read about the thoughts in the heads of the protagonist, see how other people think when the shit’s hitting the fan, even if its fantastic and somewhat unbelievable, it may have kernel of truth that gives me options later down the road when I am in some fucked up situation.  

Even in books like “The Hitchhikers Guide to the Galaxy” there are lessons.   The various races of aliens are mirrors to differnt mental states of people and how Arthur Dent bounces his way through the Galaxy like a pinball with no control of direction is analogy to how most people live their lives.  

Those books have much more value to me than the price tag, and I have copies of them all, and NONE are ‘bagged and tagged’ awaiting some assayer to attribute some monetary value to them.  They are all dog eared and torn covers (all but the hardbacks, and those may be missing the outer sleeve, but they tend to be better kept then the paperbacks.).  

And every time I move, my ‘friends’ go with me, and take up far more space than my personal effects. (and those boxes are HEAVY!!!).  Only one time did I not take all my friends with me, and that was when I split from my last GF and I have been slowly replacing those lost friends over the last fifteen years.   It wasn’t an easy decision to make either, let me tell you.   But the situation dictated I needed to ’empty my cup’.  (and I have picked up quite a few new ones along the way as well as old ones that were waylaid.)

And its not just books.  One of the reasons I would probably not make a good business owner is how I see the value of people.   I would have a hard time assigning a ‘wage’ to someone, and some people would be given next to nothing (because the bring next to nothing to the table) or so high that I would go bankrupt (because those are the people that actually build your business for you.).  And of course, there are all the regulations and Minimum Wage laws, and now, here. locally, demand that certain federal/state fees MUST be accounted for before you can work within city limits.   (Workmans Comp payments must be shown or you can’t work as a contractor.  EVEN IF, you have never had a workmans comp claim laid against you,,,  EVEN IF, you are solo contractor without employees,,,,   ).  

IMO,That last is an example of “Value perception”.   and just how skewed the value can become when Government gets its paws involved.

But I digress.    Maybe I have more than a little bit of poet in me, since I see value in things far deeper and richer than just ‘Money”.  I see experience as far more valuable and being able to get experience through the words of others, via book, spoken word, or in modern ways, in video, holds more value to me than just the price tag assigned.   (and look at how much experience Rittenhouse and the latest Defender gained through FPS vid-games.   Maybe it looks like a game, but that level of expertise in shooting, that has career operators applauding, is astounding.  Those games hold more value than I formerly suspected.)

So, what brought up this memory?   I heard that when my friends dad had died, he had his dads library ‘bagged and tagged’ and sold it piece-meal through EvilBay.   I recall that library and those books and just how large it was ( all four walls of the basement, ceiling to floor and several stacks of boxes full). I wouldn’t be surprised if he had multiple copies of every single early release of Heinlein (and I know he had them all the way to “Friday”, because that was my introduction to Heinlein, and I picked it up from his library.).  I can garan-danged-tee you that said friend NEVER read a single book in that library.   No pictures, so they held zero interest to him and were only worth, to him, what someone else was willing to pay for them.

I don’t get that.  I guess I never will.  

And I am okay with that.

Life carries on,

Way back in me early years, I read Orwells 1984, and before that date.   I was like 12 when I read it, and while the story gave me the willies, even then, my early years, I ‘knew’ that it was a story and that no society could go so far down the tubes as described.

Boy howdy was I frickin’ wrong.   

What I didn’t understand at the time was the “Mob Rule”: That a mobs intelligence is one half of that of its dumbest member.   And a society is a Mob in a very real sense.

Look around you.  We joke about the Enemedia being Orwells MiniTru, but when I read articles like Doctor Malone discussing how mRNA tech history is being re-written,,,   Are we really all that far from it.   Constant surveillance through devices we readily carry daily,,,,    Maybe the information flow is far too great to keep up with, but the point is the same.  Once you become a target, getting your information becomes stoopid easy, and the way the laws are arbitrarily applied, and as numerous as they are, they will find something to stick you in a cage.   Yah, we have the MiniTru, We have the Big Brother surveillance.   Our ‘military’ is rapidly become the Ministry of Love with our perfumed princes of the potomac ignoring the basic premise of a military and pushing the inclusivity and diversity schtick.   We have a figurehead that fully represents what the shadow government thinks of our Untied Staatz (HT to BCE for that’un).  


There was a poll recently (and while I don’t give much credence to polls, this one seemed ‘mostly honest’) saying that 28% of the population feels they may need to take up arms against our government.  and 68% of the rural population feel threatened by our government in a very real way. (Personally I think the numbers a tad higher, but people will tone down in a state where they are paranoid of being targets.)

I think whats bugging me the most is how the US, while it has been at the forefront of most everything the last 100+ years, is lagging behind across the board this round.   Canada had the Trucker Convoy and stalled an entire country for months.  The US repeat was a popcorn fart in comparison.  We have the Dutch Farmers shutting down thier country in response to government overreach, and here,,,,  crickets.   The Yellow Vest riots in France, that as far as I know are still off and on,   and the people rising up against totalitarian overreach ’round the world, yet here,,,,    The only riots we have seen are the burnlootmurderwegetpaidtodothisshit groups that have Soros fingers so far up their anal cavities,,,     The only “Insurrection” event was so peaceful,,,,  you know the one, the one that AOC swears she almost died in. yeah,,,,

And yet no one ever mentions the burning dumpster fires and pink pussie hats of 2017 with minimal arrests and near zero coverage (and only positive coverage of the pussiehat shit) by the enemedia,,,,    

Do I want a fight?   Not really, but its obvious that TPTB DO!!!   They either want it here so they can ‘find reason’ to implement the ‘final solution’, or they want a world war so they can ‘rally support’.    And the attempts are so farcical that even the dumbest member of my work force sees it.   

They know if they really push for the gun control thing, going straight to confiscation, they will spark off the next Civil War, and I think even they know that is a game they won’t win.   BUT, they so want to be “The Power” all while having this delusional game plan.   

I look at the “you will own nothing and be happy” plan.  And I can see how they think it will work.  If you could get it in a static laboratory environment,  it MIGHT work for a few years.   Problem being, the world is NOT a static environment, and people are NOT widgets that Always operate perfectly.  We are human, we make mistakes, and we adapt.   People like owning things.   Even apartment dwellers like being able to say that they OWN something, even if its just the car they drive or that superwidescreenTV with the 30000W sound system and the 64bit octocore processor gaming computer they play with.   You want proof that people like owning things?   Look around at all the storage rental places.   If that isn’t sign that people want to own things, even if they can’t keep it with them and are willing to pay for a place to keep it,,,,   Storage rental is a big business with lucrative cash flow.   

Personally, I don’t want to ‘rent my life’ from others, knowing that if I were to say the wrong thing to someone, that I could be doxxed and suddenly all those things I ‘rent’ would be pulled, up to and including my means of income.   That situation, which is what Soros, Schwab and the Davos peeps want for the rest of us unwashed masses, would lead to a three tiered world.   You would have THEM, (S,S,&D crowd) US, those just trying to get along, and then the shadow world, blackmarket etc.   

Even Orwell described that in 1984.   Winston bought his notebook from one of those people in the shadow world.  He ‘rented’ his hideaway crib where he had his dalliance with the girl from the same people.    There were three tiers there as well.(while not a proof that the ‘new world order’ is a failure out of the gate, but it does show that others have thought this through to fruition and the fallacies are obvious.)

I don’t want to live in Winstons world.   I’d rather load the Ghostboat with as much as I could carry and head out, tempting fate and the environment.   At least there, the rules aren’t arbitrary and applied at whim.   Mamanature may be a bitch, but she doesn’t shift the rules ‘just because’.   

Not that I am worried about things going that far.  The backlash is growing, and while the MINITRU doesn’t cover it, the internet is NOT silent, and the signal is still getting through.   Look at Sri Lanka, look at the how certain countries are getting very little coverage (India is one that ‘isn’t playing’, China, Russia, none of them are ‘falling in line’ with the NWO plan,).  The signal is there, IF you know what to look for, and that keeps this thing from rushing headlong into that ‘utopia’ they envision.

Even if things fall so far, life carries on.   Look at how people lived during the seige of Stalingrad.    There was still day to day taking place at the end of the German Reich, and after the firebombing of Dresden.    It may not be anywhere near the levels of comfort we are used to, but people carry on, food makes it to a table, even if that table is a napkin on a lap in the basement of a burned out basement.   It may not be filet mignon, more likely rat or cat or a can of cat food, but someone is going to be eating, and able to carry on the next day to do it all again.   Selko was very good at describing life in Bosnia, and if things continue forward at pace as I see it, WE will see that here.   At least in the cities, maybe not so much in places like where I live, but even here things will get ‘rough’.

Ok, enough with my meandering thoughts today.   Part of my thinking is due to a weather shift today.  I am thinking that we are in for one hella bad winter forthcoming and maybe I need to double up on my wood pile.   At least I still have time and resources to do so.   So, think about what we are seeing, what I discussed above, and then get your butt in gear to do some prep of your own.   IF you live in a city or the burbs, and can’t get OUT, by all means prepare anyway, but think seriously about “SmellSec”.   The smell of cooking food will carry for miles and when people are hungry, their noses are as good as a dogs.    Its not just the means, but what you do to insure you can KEEP IT.

Idle hands, devils tools

Creativity is not a blessing, its something of a curse as well.   As Sarah points out over at the Mad Genius Club, the price of being creative is that you have to create.

Self admission of late tells me that I have been lax as all get out on that note.  I have had to be ‘creative’ in finding some solutions, but that is not creating, thats problem solving: totally different animal.  I haven’t made a dent in any re-writes, or the sequel to Wings, or any shorts, even my writing here is taking a major hit.  Even in my kayak-y world, I have been leaning on what others created, and done nothing of my own.  I have a paddle that is half finished and no drive to wrap it up.  Its been on the wall for 3 months now.

Oh, I could likely ‘create’ all sorts of excuses as to the why I am not doing anything, but the fact is, I am NOT doing anything creative and its taking a toll on my psyche.   My anxiety levels have increased. 

When did it start?

That is part of the problem.  I know damned well when it started and that point was so far out of my control that only DOG had any say in things.  While I don’t want to open up that crate to expose to the world, it is still trimming my rudder for waters I would rather not be in, and while I have to be in them, its effecting other things, like my drive to create.   That isn’t an excuse, its a fact that I need to find a work around to.  If I don’t, it becomes the excuse and those start to accumulate like snowballs into avalanches.

And why so many of you are seeing me hit the escape button so often.    What I have to deal with is inside, and I try to get away from myself more than is probably healthy.   

Even my drinking is back up, and I know where that road leads. 

And some of that has a lot to with the work environment; what was convenient, has become a burden.  

What am I trying to do in this post?   Vent? Rant, (no, there would be a lot more cursing,,) Beg for help (nope, Other than for a friendly ear,,,) Am I trying to sort out whats eating me?   Maybe.  But there is only so much I am willing to expose to the world at large, and whats eating me is NOT on that list.  Trust me, it ain’t just the J.O.B. or “The REAL world” (which ain’t,,)(and thats another post completely, one that has been written about here a time or twenty)

Vent?  yeah, maybe a little.   Kittehs aren’t the best ears for spiritual issues of the human kind.  They just look at you like “just be the cat, if it irritates you , KILL IT.”    and Oh, there are days where that simple solution runs strong (and I know I am not alone in that,,,).  

So, at what point do I grab the reins, yank hard and tell the horses pulling this damned wagon that I have had enough?   This week?  Next year? or do I just keep the grumbles under breath and slog on, slowly dying inside?   Cuz that is how this is starting to feel.   (so I am taking Sarahs advice and getting on the keyboard and typing something anything to try and pry that valve back open.)

I have NO desire to delve into the political shenanigans of the THE FRAUD or World Power Shuffles, (even though that is exactly what is going on, and if things continue at pace, the US is going to be as effective as Rwanda on the world stage.  Not that I see the Ameri-CAN people allowing this country to fail that far,,,  Too many markers saying that things are about to turn around, and for MUCH better.)

And I am only willing to expose myself so much to the world at large.  Call it my Introversion if you will, but its fact that there is only so much me I can let out.  And probably why I am 54 and single (and have been for 12 years) and maybe that is part of the problem as well (ya think?)    (Hey, did I just let part of the beast out of the bag?) (Yup!). (but by nowhere near all of it, trust me!!!  That was just a pinkie finger of the beast,,,)

I guess ya all can see how this post is going to end today.   I’m going kayaking again.   and I may even take a tent and stay overnight, no phone, no fuzzie purrbox distractions demanding lap/foodies/snugz, no ‘new’ neighbors running a generator in the wee hours of the night (gah, that thing is irritating,,,,).  Just me, the trees, water and a kayak,,,,,  But mostly me, so I can take my soul out and see what needs patched.

This too shall pass, right?

Yay, Four day weekend!!!!!


Long story, but plans that were made back during the early parts of summer (say three months back) have been hulled below the waterline by Bossman.

IF, I don’t use that lever of mine and tell him to FOADIAF.

He “generously, gave us” Monday the fourth off, (without pay,,,) but to make our hours back up, we get to work that following Friday. Umhmmm,,, Well, I had made plans to be at the camp on Thursday eve, since we have been working Mon-Thurs the last month, and have two full days/three nights with friends, and NOT have to inconvenience the work environment.


To say that the last month or so, my frustration with the J.O.B. has started stripping out any benefit I receive in Monetary compensation. I fought tooth and nail with myself the last week, maybe two weeks, to get up and go in.

And the key point is this one.

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And when you find out, inadvertently, that said person makes the same rate as you,,,,

As happened Thursday evening, on my way out,,,

Makes me think that I may be taking a Vaca week, without warning, and spending some quality time getting my head in order, and damn the finances for a bit.

Maybe this is the nudge I need to get off my ass and walk away permanently from a VERY Toxic relationship/Job.

Is the timing optimal? Hell no! Is it EVER?

But one thing I am is resilient,



Sat on the porch yesterday as I was tapping that out, dusk coming down fast, and suddenly Mama-kats’ ears perked up and she was all attention towards Unc’s garden. First glance all I see are the usual 5 rabbits playing and eating my yard/weeds. (I really need to mow that section, but I like watching the bunnies,,,). Well, that wasn’t it, Mama never gives the Buns a moment of attention (with the exception of that one she tried to adopt 2 years back.) OOOHHHH!! Now I see it. Ear flicks from the bean patch; Three Doe wandering through the garden. Unc is on vaca in Floriduh and that section of our little hollar has been VERY quiet the last week, AND, my Cuz moving into the hollar on the other side of me has created a disruption in their usual pathways.

While I like watching them, what I thought was “well, I know when things get tight, where dinner is coming from”. Between Thumper and Bambi, the kids n I are not going to starve, but gonna have to be a stealthy hunter and keep the bangy bangs subdued.

It’s funny, I have a dog for security, but its Mama-kat that always warns me when wildlife is on the move. The first time she did that ear perk thing from the porch was when the Bear was eating up the corn patch, and she went all growly about that one. Voo? notsomuch,,, Even with the breeze blowing bear stink his way, the most noize he made was a snore. Great security eh? LOL. Love the mutt, but other than companionship, he is about the most worthless,,,,,

Today, to get rid of some of my stress from the opening subject, I did my usual therapy: I Went kayaking. Did some exercises I picked up from “Dancing with the Sea” and while I am still shaky on that whole edging thing, I did see improvement. Just have to keep at it. Will say that my confidence in waves is better, and not just because of the exercises, but because of a boat that was designed for that stuff. Blue Jean is one hella boat and I would be even more ecstatic about her if she weighed 30# LESS. She runs right at 70# empty, which means nothing much ON the water, but that transition between transport and the waters edge is beastly. And most of my put-ins are not at boat ramps where I can use a dolly/cart.

I was out in a shallow spot, wedged between two spits, the water is only 3′ deep and its along a route to a wider area that the power boaters love to get to, usually bow up making lots of noise and waves. Well, those waves focus into that little bay and being shallow, the waves even whitecap. I sat out there, about 100′ from the shore, and those waves were hitting me from all directions and I never once felt ‘tippy’. Mostly the boat, but there was that ‘paddle’ thing Paulo talks about in his course, and it DID change the game. One set of waves washed my decks off, from the side, and I never wobbled.

I paddled back to my put in with a shit eating grin on my face.

Im knee deep in water, to show how shallow this part is.

I love this boat!!!

I have some serious thinking about what I want moving forward, and there is a set of ears I need to borrow, real soon. Some things just don’t translate well in blogging and when you need to bounce ideas off someone else, blogging lacks.

(and a lot of this transition thing with the J.O.B. is why I have been dropping the ball with the world at large. I have to live my life as best I can, and right now, I feel like that has been way more difficult than it should be, and NOT because of the inflation hitting us sideways. No, this is at the spiritual level and I need fix that before I can ‘fix’ the world, if ya know what I mean.)

And the world turns on

I’m actually in a fairly good mood today.  Took Blue Jean to Laurel Lake and put a few miles on.  Several broad reaches across wide open water: quarter mile and half mile types.   Then the sea-doos and yayhoos started running amok, and while I am well used to the waves, what I could never get over is being ran over by one of those fast movers, and from the way they operate, I don’t think they watch FORWARD too well.   Saw one fast mover catch air off a wave and the way he landed, I don’t think it was an intentional ‘jump’.   No thanks, I’ll get my narrow long self off the water and let y’all play.  I had a few hours of goodness out there.

Came home, and took the new to me boat back on the river for small spell.  Last night, talking to B, decided to try moving the seat position back a notch (1″) and see if that slows down the turning transition in her.  Not that it was out of control, but I had to make a lot of corrective strokes to keep her in line,   Moving things back did seem to help ‘some’, but I think the nature of the boat is for that sort and nothing else.  A boat I have to grow into,,,   That ain’t a bad thing.

And kittehs,,,    The boys are off sowing their wild oats.   Grizzy finally hit his hormonal levels, and is staying out all night now. Haven’t seen him or Zooms in two days, with the exception of a few minutes in the wee hours last night: Grizz came in around 3 am and greeted me/demanded more food in the bowl.   I’m hoping the little rat will keep out of trouble, but he is a Tom, with the gear, and I know better.   He’ll get his butt kicked and come home to be tended to for awhile, then when he gets that urge again, back at it.   I know that one day, one or both of them won’t return home because they went ‘too far’ and met an end.    I could ‘alter’ them, but after the experience with Voodoo and his alteration, I swore I would never subject another animal to that travesty, no matter what, and all the ‘its better for the animal’ arguments, won’t sway me an inch,,,   IF God had intended them to be ball-less and hormone neutral, he’d have made them that way: Who am I to think I know better.   The only argument that might sway me is the “so many homeless pets”, but when all of my pets have been abandoned by others,,, That argument is bunk as well.  My boys have a good home, if they chose to stay here 24/7 and its far enough out that their efforts will be few and far between in success, so even that argument doesn’t hold a lot of water with me.

ON THE HOME FRONT,,,,   As if I needed any more incentive to want to move from my location,,,,   Who ever said that God doesn’t have a sense of humor.   One rather like my Da’s: Morbid and twisted, but kinda funny after the fact.   The property next to mine was owned by one cousin for years.  He never did a danged thing to it.   There is an old abandoned house on it that finally succumbed to gravity a couple years back (after a couple of poplar trees had grown through the roof).    3 acres, mostly returned to a natural state.   

Well, Seems Cuz 1 needed cash in a bad way.   Cuz 2 just sold a house in a neighboring town and wanted to buy something ‘closer to his roots’.    Doesn’t sound too bad so far does it?    Problem is, Cuz 2 is a wastrel, and his kids are known thieves, and there have been several instances of him and Ol’lady having rather loud and intense squabbles that usually involve police. (and this area is on the edge of two counties, so jurisdiction gets questioned or shunted off a lot, and State Troopers have to pick up the slack.   Time to response is usually measured in HOURS and occasionally in DAYS unless a body is involved.)

For the first time in seven years, I started locking my house and shed.   I had to shift some things around in the shed to store the tools I used to keep on my porch for working on kayaks.   I’m locking my truck and its tool box up, at home, where I used to not worry about such.  (I had to dig through keys to find the door keys, if that says how comfortable I have been leaving my place unlocked.  Not anymore,,,) 

He moved a fifth-wheel camper in last night, says he is going to build a house there.  He is a masonry guy, but knowing some of his history, I see that camper becoming ‘the house’ and a shed or two added in to spread the family around, but a house???   Not so much.  At best, I expect him to lay a block foundation and move in a trailer, maybe. Yeah, its family, but being family does not automatically earn respect, it only gains you forgiveness others would not be given.   This particular case has, in my opinion, worn that forgiveness paper-thin.   Also, my opinion: He and His are the epitome of “White trash”,,,    I don’t hold it against Cuz 1, but danggit, my little corner of the world just shifted in a bad way, and I don’t like it.

At least I don’t have to worry about him or his stealing my kayaks.   There is no way they could sneak them off this hill without passing 4 places that would see it.  It’s the little stuff like tools and computers that I worry about.   And the pets.  Not sure how the brats will act around animals that aren’t people shy.  

Elsewhere is sure looking damned good to me right now,,,,    And I don’t even know where that is,,,


But I am still in a better mood than I was 12 hours ago.   Water therapy is a wonder,,,,    Wave actions do amazing things to lower back pain too.

Mi vida loca

Man, if there was a way to get something completely F!ed up, I found at least one alternate version today.   Even managed to cut the cables to my solar panels while I was out shaving the rocks in my Minefield/obstacle course that is loosely called “the yard”.  

Easy enough fix, but dang-it!!!, I know I buried those daggum things when I put the panels on a rack. (formerly installed on roof. NOTE: do NOT do that.  Bad bad Juju happens to people that do that!!!). and I know it because there was fresh dirt where the mower grabbed them and pulled the remainder out of that trench.   That’s part of the problem living on this hill.  Nothing stays buried.  Rocks grow better than weeds, and the weeds grow better than anything that resembles ‘grass’.  Every spring, my liitle rock retaining wall grows a little bigger  as I add rocks to it as they pop up in front of and underneath the mower.   I replace the blades on the mower at least once a year.  Twice last year as I broke both.  Amazingly, I didn’t destroy the engine.

In about 20 years of annual mowing, this yard may become civilized.   Sure as heck isn’t right now.  Maybe I just need a herd of sheep to keep it trimmed,,,,

Sorry for the lack of posting lately, I just needed to take a break from things.  I didn’t even take the phone to work with me on Monday.  Left it here at the house and reveled in the peace of mind that settled in without the deluge of email notices, and other things.   

As was quoted of John Ross, RIP, talking about his sequel to Unintended Consequences: He said that he hadn’t been able to finish the book because the FRAUD kept giving him new material every morning.   I know exactly how he felt: I have the same problem coming up in the sequel to Wings for that very same reason.  I guess I should have written the whole thing further into the future or just ignored ‘current events’ while writing the original, but now I feel like I am locked into using our ‘history’ as it unfolds, and the FRAUD just keeps piling on more crap.  Even when you think things can’t get any stranger, they dump a shovel load of “WTF?” on and turn the valve open just a little further.


Ok, Confession time.  I am HIGHLY distracted right now, and it has NOTHING, absolutely NOTHING, to do with world events or any of that. My distraction explains why I am having little “oops” factors popping up on me too.   Nopes, I found another deal of the century in kayaky goodness, and I am trying my dangedest to make the connections that make it MINE!!!!    Don’t want to go into too many details, like make and model, or what not, but I can tell you it is a legitimate Seakayak, 17′ long, and honest to Dawg fiberglass construction.   Need some TLC, but from everything I can see in the pictures i have of it, the TLC is outfitting only.  The glass appears ‘factory fresh’, and I can see that the skeg is in working order.   So, new deck lines, possibly new hatch covers ( most likely) and I would have a ship-shape seakayak for a tenth of the price of a new one.  No, I am not kidding, ONE. TENTH. 818d4c31065b7acc8e9786747b21b6d1(not the exact version, but a good example.)

yup, its eating me alive trying to figure out how to get tab A into slot B and make all of this happen.  So, apologies to you all for my lack of focus on the bloggy stuff.  

Last of the ooff!!! posts(and a detour)

short by long day today(read BORING) at the salt mine.  four hours, *sigh*…

Lats are letting me know that we paddled 6+miles Saturday, but that seems to be the worst of it.  Good to go otherwise.  
Spent a little time surfing the nets today, and while yeah, not much is going on, a shit ton is going on at the same time, and not a whole lot of people seem to be putting the dots together.

Some are though, and when it goes sideways later this year, say around late September, early October, a LOT of people are going to be looking around and asking questions.  There are solutions that can be implemented RIGHT NOW, and to work, they would need to be done, well, yesterday would be best, but right now would work too.  The biggest thing that could be done right now is for the asshats that are causing shipping issues in Grain and Fertilzers to unshackle the rail distribution.   That ain’t gonna happen though: As BCE states, “ I mean WHO ordered this ‘force majeure’ measures?  Someone Somewhere knows Something “. Looking at the ‘accidents’, and how they are spaced with increasing regularity, we ain’t seen the end of the funhouse games either.  Wait until Smithfield packing starts shuttering plants for the coronaphobia.  Chinese owned plants spread out around the country and already (witnessed by mine eyes,  Had a gate install at one recently) a very totalitarian lock down.  Surprised I didn’t see employees in full on level 4 Bio gear, but it wasn’t all that far from it either.

Its not the actions that worry me, its the timelines.   They are stretching this fuck up out over as long as possible and the longer it takes to hit peak, the worse it will be, and the harder to correct.   That they can’t win is simple reasoning: Reality ALWAYS wins and their plans are NOT based in reality.    But man!!! they can sure leave one hell of a mess for the survivors to clean up.   

And I worry about friends.  I am set up pretty sweet, in an out of the way place, with quite a ‘buffer area’ between main roads and myself.   I’m elevated with a good undeveloped area behind me that isn’t easy to traverse without making a ton of noise.   My biggest issue is my ears: they suck.   I can’t hear said noises easily, (unless its really low frequencies, like helo blade thumps) and Voodoos ears are purt much ruined these days as well.  Kittehs have been pretty good about letting me know when things are moving (when they come racing into the house, skid to a stop and all ears and eyes and whiskers are pointed outside, Sumpin’s up!!!). But my friends are NOT set up as well.  I don’t preach, no point in wasting my breath and alienating someone at the same time.  That ain’t my style; I try to lead by example, and in this case if example is ignored, so be it.   An offer is out for sanctuary (to a very few) if it gets to that point, but there will be no luxuries or amenities to be taken for granted: Rationing is a must, and the more mouths, the slimmer the rations.   AND NO DEAD WEIGHT.  You don’t work, you don’t eat.(and if it gets real bad, dead weight becomes fertilizer or dog food.  Voo won’t mind long pig,,,)

Harsh?   Harsh times require harsh methods, and hardened hearts.   Thats LIFE.    I have stated here many a time “Best get it in your head NOW, how you would respond to hard choices.” and there is plenty of Survival Pron out there in fiction to get your head around what could be ‘worst case scenario’.   (example is what happens when one of your littles gets wounded in a fatal way.  Not a quick fatal either: more like getting their liver or kidneys shot up, and there is zero chance of getting to a Trauma Unit.   Slow and painful.  How are you going to deal with that, and NO, folding up in the fetal position is NOT an option.)

deep breath.   relax.  Think water,,,,

I have thought about these things.  Hell, I am always running worst case through my head every day, even on the day to day.   That I haven’t gone on a shooting spree doesn’t tell you I am not dangerous, it tells you that I keep the beast on a very short leash, made from the anchor chain of the Tarawa.    And I look for people who aren’t ‘safe’.   B is one such: I have seen it, He WILL run to the sound of gunfire if needed.  He won’t balk when the shit is getting heavy, and he will stress and strain so long as ANY of his PEOPLE are in even a limited amount of danger.   My brudderbyanuddermudder is good people and I will happily bring him in if need arises.   He and his are where my worries orbit these days.  Their location is not good, IMO, but it is what it is and all of my worries may be for naught.   


I need to break off from this line of thought or I won’t get any sleep tonight.   Here’s sumpin funny for y’all.COCKED


Follow up on Oofff!!!

Hate to say it but the medal was kind of a “Gimme”; There were only two of us in that class. So, last place, woohooo… With that up front, it was competitive. I never lost sight of the other paddler, but he was running a home built Night Heron Design which Nick Schade came up with to improve on the Greenland Inuit designs. Hull speed is about 3/4 mph faster than mine and it showed. I never lost sight of him, but he continually pulled ahead of me and by the end of the race, had near a half mile lead on me. Neither of us EVER stopped paddling (other than to grab some water ’cause that wind was drying everyone out. Dry enough that you couldn’t spit!) and he was using a Wing Paddle where I was using my Greenland. There is a performance difference, but I am still impressed that a GP can still compete with a Wing: maybe not beat it, but it will give it a run for its money. Considering the GP was designed by primitive peoples using anthropomorphic measurements, and the Wings are computer designed high tech paddles, I think that says more about “human ingenuity” than mere words here can express.

And there were participation awards as well, but In this case I ain’t giving the promoters any shit about it. Just showing up at the finish line was a challenge and a half!!! There was a kickin’ wind coming out of the west, straight into our faces for the return trip and getting through that was no fun. Cooling, as the splash from the paddles kept the quickly drying sweat washed off the face, but damn!!! what a battle heading up-wind.

Selkie did frigging PERFECT. No splash off the bow!!! She just sliced right in and didn’t matter if it was glass flat or chop or wave sets. Chop did nothing against performance while wave sets played with her stern a bit, and she did surf a wave face or three. Not much, but enough to give the old dude at the paddle a momentary respite, and a small ‘turbo boost’.

What needs changed though? 6.5 miles will tell you something about your design that “isn’t quite right”. In my case, its the bulkhead footrest I came up with. It worked, worked well, but the angle is ALL OFF. My heels went numb fairly early, and I started shifting around trying to make them comfortable and that put the strain on other parts and by the end of the race, I felt like I had a hole bored into my left asscheek. Nothing wrong with my seat pad, it was all about the footrest and that is easy enough to fix.

Even though I felt stiff and unstable for the first mile, that wasn’t ‘a boat issue’: that was a “I’m in need of seat time” issue, and by the end of the first mile, my hips had loosened up and my mind put into ‘sea-legs’ mode and I was fine. Wave-sets off the rear quarter didn’t goose me after that first mile like they did when I started out, and I was paddling smoother with each hundred yards traveled; not the epileptic seizure splash and churn that I started with. I really needed to get A LOT more seat time in before this race, but is what it is, and now I have my mind conditioned for the rest of the paddle season.

B, the indomitable, stubborn persistent bullish paddler he is, came across the line last of the entire group. He had done the long distance run so had to do two laps to my one, and that wind was kickin’ EVERYONES ass. Even the surfski’s were looking rather dogged out when they crossed the line at the last. B was in a Perception Vizcaya (yeah, the blue one I used to own.) and while its a great little recreational boat, B (and meself vicariously) found it ‘It ain’t no race boat’. Great hull design for shallow waters where you want to ride over debris and what not, but seeing the double wake pattern along its gunwales tells me it creates its own drag.* You are fighting the boat to move forward at anything over ‘mild cruise’ (3-4mph). if you go for higher, you have to double your efforts to hold it and that wears you down. B did that for 13 miles of open water, 6.5 of which was in a head wind of at least 8mph with gusting up to 25.

And this was the first big paddle of the season. Wooofffff!!!!

T, bullheaded and stubborn herself, chose to do the same lap as I did, but she did it in her Duck; An inflatable whitewater ‘kayak’. She fought probably twice as hard as B and I did because she was still set up for whitewater, not flat water and the bow of her Duck kept trying to fly off the water when she was headed into the wind. I watched her crossing the bay towards the finish line and a halfway serious gust would lift the front and turn her boat ninety degrees to her heading, and she would have to fight to correct it. She paddled half the race from the kneeling position to keep her weight forward and stop that, but that’s a very hard position to paddle in if you don’t have the ‘saddle’ for it. She did finish, and I could hear the exhaustion in her voice while talking to her afterwards.

That fight she had was why I am saying not giving the promoter shit for the participation awards. Just crossing the finish line yesterday was a challenge and those that did, deserve something ‘just for showing up to the fight’.

Damned good day out, and I mentioned to B that I hadn’t felt this relaxed since around August of last year. I need to get out to the Church of the Two Bladed Paddle a whole lot more often. The world seems brighter today for it.

* In comparison, in Selkie, I didn’t see the first wake wave until well near my cockpit, while moving at nearly 5mph. And it was a lot smaller than the wave the Viz was making: it never rose to the gunwales like what I saw on the Viz. No way to change the design of his boat, but I am certain he will keep in mind what its capable of, and more importantly what it is NOT capable of, in the future.

sumpin to lead into a positive weekend

What if, the adage of “If its from Government, its all bullshit” is more true than you understand and far BIGGER than you ever suspected?

I refer you to the post by the indomitable Sarah Hoyt so you have something to work with.  It’s on the long side for some of my readers, but I highly encourage you to do so.  PLEASE RTWT.

What if, and I have no way to verify, no one does, but logic and historical precedents tell me its highly likely, that UN figures are complete bunk and Sarah’s estimate of Less than Half stated figures of world population are correct, then literally every talking point on Gorbalworming/Peak Oil/GreenEnergy will save the planet/we need to reduce the population (why if its already half of what they claim?) etc etc etc,,,     Every! Single! Point! they try to use to keep things in line is bullshit if just that number is off by half.   And I have every reason to think Sarah is center target from 10000 yards on this one.   I have seen US examples of her examples from Portugal, where people would ‘borrow’ children for census purposes to get a little more on the dole: I have seen it our own ghettos here, and I would bet there are more than a few Social Service workers that ‘turn a blind eye’ on it, yet know full well what the game is.  And of course there is the padding of the numbers by representatives to make sure they can rightfully claim proper share of the spoils of FedGov.  Most of that crap is based on census numbers.    Heck, I recall in 2010 me having a fight with a census taker over how many times they were going to count my household.   I saw 7 census workers in less than two weeks and none the same and they counted the people in our apartment each time.   What if the actual numbers of people in the US is closer to half the 330 million they claim.  Maybe not 1/7th as would be indicated by how many times they counted heads in my ‘hood that year, but half could be expected from such heavy handed applications of number counting.(half would be 165 million.   1/7th would be roughly 47 million.   Claimed Census numbers when I was a pre-teen were 226 million.  Dunno, but it seems to me that even with ‘urban sprawl’ there hasn’t been that much growth.   Less people living in inner cities these days as there were when I was a kid.   That exodus from the cities was evident by the Mall, suburbs, and a growing network of highways and loops to make urban areas more accessible for those that required commute to the inner city where the offices were still located.  ) 



One quote hit home in an almost personal way, though it was written broad brush.

In other fields, I have friends who overshadowed by the big-group-of-boomers, were treated as “the young kid” well into their fifties, and now suddenly find themselves being called “the old man/woman” and finding they are too old to be affordable.

  I have been ‘The Kid’ at so many jobs, and now, suddenly, I am the “greybeard”.   I knew I was on my way out in the Audio field when I was called ‘Granpa’ on a Gospel tour.  It wasn’t a one time thing either, I carried that title the whole tour.  (and I wasn’t a grandpa YET, that came a few years later after I had moved on to I.T. at the hospital.)

And that last sentence ‘and finding they are too old to be affordable’,,,    I fear having to find a new place of employment because of my age.  I know most managers would see my DOB and think, ‘too old, gonna cost us a fortune in medical insurance coverage’ or sumsuch.    OR, Too much experience for this rate of pay,,, (and I have tons of experience in many different fields, and refuse to list half of them, for that very reason.) I found out early forties that people don’t believe I have done a third of the things I have, until I start pulling out the medals, certificates, pictures with entertainment peeps, and backstage passes, or pictures of my builds, like my house and kayaks.

But I digress,,,

World population as I am writing this is Guesstimated at close to 8 billon people.  That number is up 2 billion since 1998.  This link will open up a wormhole for those so inclined.  (I know, wikipedia, *eyeroll* ).   

I think their model is WAY off, personally.  and the world population sure looks suspiciously like a certain ‘hockey stick’ graph that has gained a bad reputation the last decade or two.

And I drive backroads around SE KY a lot.   I don’t see a lot of Urban Sprawl going on in most cases, but I do see a buttload of Abandoned homes, burned out shells, and vacant foundations that never were rebuilt.   I see empty barn/warehouse/business buildings that haven’t seen a key in the lock in decades, as indicated by the Kudzu growing over the building.    If we were expanding at such a rate, don’t you think we would have more need of those residences and businesses to keep things up?   
I know when I was at the Hospital in the IT department, we had a HUGE ObGyn department.   I think there were over a hundred cribs in it.  I know there were 40 in NICU.   I never, NEVER saw more than a handful of cribs with occupants.  And NICU virtually matched the regular ward, because we were on the edge of Ghetto/Whitetrash areas and there were always Preemies and babies born addicted to some substance.   This in a city with a supposed population near 2 million.   Granted, this was ONE hospital in an area loaded with hospitals (I recall I could look out our office windows and see three others, and that was in ONE direction.   Still, a hospital that was seeing less than 5% occupancy of its ObGyn units, while seeing near full occupancy in its Cancer wards and Heart wards,,, Seems to me we are better at keeping people alive than making new ones,,,,

And that goes right back to what Sarah is talking about.   Our current FRAUD is part of that.    

And if those numbers are as skewed as Sarah, and now I, suspect,,,  Makes ya wonder just how F!up the numbers are when you see our Deficit spending, National Debt and GDP.   Something is off, WAY OFF.

Have a good weekend all.  I have a race that needs to be attended to, and a kayak that gets her cherry popped in it.  I’ll have some more up as I decompress while off doing frivolous things, drinking beer and conversing with NOT KATS,   (and I have a short story I am plugging in and editing right now about a KAT conversation,,,,    Tease!!!!!)(seriously, there will be a shorty on that.)

Post easter thinks

Looking around the spheres today, I see a growing line of thinking that revolves around financial collapse.   Not wanting to fall into the vacuum of a think tank, but knowing that we have been swirling that drain for over a decade (and it started BEFORE 2008, the QE to infinity just put the spurs into the old nag,,) I started thinking about “whats next?”.   

Well, I have no solid answer and I am in no position to say that ‘this’ is definitely gonna happen, so take all of my thinking here as mere speculation, with several drams of salt to season the after taste.

I keep hearing mention of “digital Currency” as the next phase of the collapse, and believe me, if the Fed decides to do away with paper, things are going to go froggy faster than you can blink.   But why now, why would it be so bad, since we are seeing digital currencies already in place.   First off, those digital currencies are what we call block chain currencies.   The Security in them is bottom up, not top down.   YOU control the security of your currency, NOT some Banker type in a far off office with no reason to be fair or balanced.     IF the FED were to create this currency for the masses, it would mean complete control of the monies you use to get through your days.  It would mean that government could control EVERYTHING despite things like the 2A.   If they decided that they didn’t want anyone to buy ammunition, they would just suspend all sales for such with some arbitrary move and no one could buy ammunition, period.  No need to pass some law, or amend a Constitution.  That level of control is exactly what they want.   If you have counter political views, they won’t need to do more than freeze your accounts for 90 days.   If you don’t fall in line by then, they have other means to mess with you: means that are more kinetic in nature, but most people would fold like a cheap suit long before that were needed on their part.

Can they do this? Yes, and no.   Yes, they could create some alternative digital currency to replace the paper forms, and most people would jump on board since they are so involved in the system already, they would have no choice.  NO: because there are already alternative systems in place outside of their influence.  Grey markets, Black Markets, etc.   And there are TONS of paper bills in circulation that many people would continue to use in lieu of that “card swipe” for the stuff that would remain out of the conventional market.   Think Drug Cartels, but in all other aspects of your living.   Farmers markets would be one such, and they would become very mobile, and go grey quickly.   Service industry, like what I do in my day to day, would become underground industry ‘for cash or barter’ only.  The outside systems would expand rapidly, and may even become dangerous (like the drug cartels, and for much the same reason.) but they would not wither away and die like the PTwB dream they would if they remove the paper.  

Coinage would become ‘normal’ again, especially those with honest to God gold and silver coins: even the Junk silver coins of pre-1965.   

I know, it sounds optimistic in some ways, but what I am seeing is not some “Great Reset , though I think there will be a Reset of some sort.  Just not the one the PTwB intend.  What I see is Big Gov failing on levels never before seen without major war.   The legitimacy of all the “Democratic” nations has faltered and is showing just how farcical they are.   We aren’t seeing forced removal of the culprits at this time, but even in Revolutionary France, that took time to build up.   When things get to that stage, the bloodshed will be epic.  My only worry at this stage is that the REAL puppetmasters will get away scot free, since they are not in the lime-light and most people don’t understand that our ‘figure-heads’ are just that, not the real powers at the controls.   (though I think Oblammy-o-boy tipped his hat recently.). Time will tell, obviously, and until then, things are going to continue to get worse, harder, and scarcer.   Like this meme.


What it costs us to get through till then, may seem outrageously high, but in actual values, nothing will change except what we are using to ‘buy’ with.   Like looking at housing right now.  Da is talking about moving, and I have been doing the leg work of finding ‘new digs’.   Houses that a year ago were 150K, are now over a quarter mil.  Nothing has changed in the value of that place, its just what you are buying it with is worth LESS, and everyone knows it.   My truck still gets 19 miles to the gallon(hwy), so the value of a gallon of gas is the same, its just what I use to buy it is worth less, so I need more of them.   And this is all by ‘the PLAN”, the plan with too many moving parts, designed in a vacuum by idjits with no real world experience or understanding of people.   Human Nature is not going to change just because these idjits think they can manipulate currencies and resources.   Human nature is not going to change that quickly, nor at their ‘direction’.    Said “PLAN” can’t work because there are people like me out here still, and I may be an odd, but I am no where near a minority. 

SO, While it looks like SHIT is getting really-realz; LIFE goes on, and people carry on, and even when things look bleak, “THIS TO SHALL PASS”.  Whats on the other side of it is going to depend on how much we stick to OUR morals, and not those that the creators of ‘The PLAN’ want us to have.

prepare for the worst, work towards better, and NEVER EVER give up your guns.


I don’t like being the cynic, I don’t like going through my days always seeing the negative. I have to make effort to see positives and BOTH wear me out. One because it burns energy to keep moving, the other because it takes energy to wade through the mess of the world to find the diamonds.


Maybe thats why I like my four-feets so much. They don’t have a malicious bone in their bodies, and everything is fine in their world so long as Dad is around and the food bowls are full. I can just relax around them because they don’t give a rats ass about the world at large. And they make me laugh with their innocence: very few people other than children have the same effect.

I try to emulate the approach to life of my fuzzies, but the world refuses to go’way. (I’d have to find a retreat REALLY far out to do that)

There IS good in the world, and every-time I find it, it has one aspect that reinforces my view on things: NO GOVERNMENT. People are basically good at heart, and it shows in how we interact on a personal basis. Not all mind you, but MOST. There are the evil shits of the world at the local personal level, but they can be avoided or dealt with, again at the local personal level, and they have little effect over the bigger picture. Unlike Xi-den, and other world leaders pretend. Those shitstains make choices that affect millions of innocents directly, and yet are never held accountable. Seemingly: Their time will come, and NO ONE GETS OUT ALIVE. Whatever ‘maker’ you believe in, there will be a reckoning for them, and I hope such entities will find that the penance is far worse than the crime. Maybe they will return as a lab-rat in one of Phizers lab,,,, or as a beagle pup with its head locked in a box and its vocal cords paralyzed (looking at you Faucocini!!!).

Again the Taxicab Confessions from 2012 is making it rounds again, and is still as relevant now as it was then(HT to Francis for linking this again) That the troubles of the country could be resolved by ‘noon tomorrow, just by dragging 100 people to street and putting a bullet to the back of the head’,,,, I think the number is closer to 535, but we all know that is just the visible part of the problem. It may put the “Skeered” into those NOT visible, but I would be surprised if that invisible sector doesn’t have back up plans in place for ‘that day’.

Yeah, I’m a Cynic. I would cheer the event, but I would be looking for the snap-back to happen at the same time.

The worst part of being the Cynic: When I have ‘had enough’ and wish it would all just burn down. Happens often enough that I know how to fight it back, but there are days where that is a struggle unto itself. Those are the days where I pull out certain books and delve into knowledge reinforcement: I know there will come a day where the rebuild begins and people like me are going to have to do what we can with what we have and the ‘what we have’ may be a whole lot of nuthin’. The advantage is that we are not starting from ground zero, IE, in a cave with a stick and rock and no knowledge. We still stand on the shoulders of Giants and their accumulated knowledge is all around us. One of those books is “build your own Metal working shop from scrap’ by the late Dave Gingery, RIP. Now, I know many a machinist that see the Gingery builds and give them the side-eye, but when you are starting from nuthin, I can’t see where the Problem is. You can use the first build to build better(including getting rid of that RH threaded lead screw for a proper LH thread one) and each evolution resolves to higher accuracy. You could build those ten thousandth accurate machines from the one you built from scrap, you just have to be meticulous in your efforts and advance your skills to harder materials(IE Cast Iron). And it all starts with a home-made foundry using materials that are ubiquitous in the world. Aluminum scrap, Sand, Clay and Charcoal. (and yes, his stuff is clonky, and over-engineered, but some of that has to do with the strength of Aluminum versus Cast-Iron. ). (another source for stuff that can be done in the ‘backyard’ is ClickSpring on UToob. Do a search for that name and the AntiKythera device and you will find a rabbithole that will swallow you up for DAYS!!! link is to the first in the series.)

Not that we would ‘Need’ to go that route; there are many a home machine shop scattered about the country, and many a ‘hobby machinist’ that could/will fill (some of) the gaps of the JIT system as needed when such time comes. Even the 3D printers will be useful so long as they can keep in feedstock. (and I have been looking into a 3D printer for making my patterns for casting. Been using wood, bondo and wax, but they tend to be ‘clonky’, not the materials fault, but the pattern makers fault.). and there are benchtop CNC machines that make detailed milling of soft materials fast and plentiful. There is a growing list of ‘Makers’ out there that will fill the gaps when things get downright stupid in the global supply market. (there is an app where you can order custom made parts, in bulk, for your idea from such ‘makers’, though I don’t recall what that app is currently. I need to research that again and get digging.)

My “Cynic” takes a break when I pick up the tools and books; Thats when the Rational Optimist in me breaks its chains and surges to the forefront, knocking the Cynic on its heels. I have so many ideas in my head that the RA wants to create, yet the need to eat takes precedence. Maybe I could sell my products, but there is ZERO market here local for such as Kayaks, Greenland paddles, or homebuilt tools that you can buy at Lowes or Harbor Freight, cheaper than I can buy the materials to make them out of. So, I work for others for now, doing what I do, including making tools and jigs to make my job easier, faster, more accurate. At least in writing, my works are selling (some, but nowhere near enough to count on.) and I keep plugging away here on the blog; venting, waiting, watching,,,

And that watching and waiting,,, Can’t trust much of anything these days. So many sources are compromised, and yet so many still trust the Enemedia to do the right thing, which they have proven time and again since 2008, they won’t do: TELL THE TRUTH. BCE and others have shown that the whole missile on a train station in the Uke is most likely a false flag done by Krainefeld to genny up support from the ‘free world’. (note: I say ‘most likely’. not a claim to fact, but the evidence is pretty damning.) Seriously, NOTHING about the current distraction of the week/month rings true; doesn’t matter what side you look at. And the fact that of all the wars in the last 40 years, THIS ONE, is the most obscure and obfuscated one we have ever seen, even with the plethora of smartphones and cellular/internet services. Seems to me that there are underground actors at work suppressing and massaging the messages, long before the Enemedia get their grubby tentacles on it.

And it is all to hide the fact that the VaxxnottaVaxx is literally killing folks, and not just a few, but in gobstopper numbers. The Reports for “All causes” as listed by the insurance agencies is going off the charts, and that is causing many agents to peak blood-pressure levels. (and probably creating more deaths from the BP spikes when they see the P&Ls for the last year.).

and to hide the shenanigans of the FRAUD from the eyes of the sheep. Can’t have the Gaffs and what not hitting the plebes full in the face: Pitchforks and torch sales might go up. As well as tar, feather pillows and fence rails. They definitely do not want to see a surge in Hemp Rope sales,,,

But people are becoming ‘Woke”, and not in the sense the Lefties have claimed as their own. Oh no, quite the opposite in fact. Disney is in for a make-over if they keep up their Grooming standards, and when the dam breaks, Pedo’s around the country are going to be scrambling for outbound flights in record numbers. Or dying,,,


Thanks to Irish for posting this. Perfect addition to this post

Thinkin’, prolly won’t be popular

But then, Popularity is not my forte. Never was popular in school, and never cared even then.

Sitting here thinking about some of my reads. And yeah, a lot of it is covering old territory around here, but sometimes a different spin on the same thing can give it a different perspective that can enlighten.

I’m feeling more than a little burnt out on the way of the world currently, and that little post along with updated napkin math got me to thinking; ‘whats worth saving?’. I mean, currently, medical care is so off the wall in pricing, that unless you are covered under serious insurances, you are going to go bankrupt if you have something major happen to you. It wasn’t all that great when i was young and married, and it has steadily grown worse over time, with the last 14 years seeing escalation of it. And then you see that Doctors are now considered middle class in income yet their education expenses tripled or more over the same decade plus. One of the incentives they used to pursue has been obliterated.

I shouldn’t have to explain it to my regular readers, but the above situation started long ago with Medicare that morphed into medicare/medicaid and became the diabolical marriage of BigPharma/Corporate Medicine/Government. When they found they could manipulate the costs and raise profits (capitalism, but with evil intent) and also found out that having only one source they needed to bribe to push through ‘chemical advancement’,,,, The encroachment of higher prices was faster than the subjective inflation. (example from personal experience: tobradex(sp?). It’s an eye ointment that also has a low level steroid in it. Here in the US, a 1/20 oz tube runs over $300. Same stuff in Mexico; $5 and is available without prescription. I needed it when I caught a piece of spat on my eyelid and said eye swelled up like a rotten plum. The stuff worked great but was more than double the price of gold by weight at the time.). Not much here that I feel is worth saving EXCEPT the people that actually do the medico stuff. Get rid of all the Regs that muck up the system and let the Docs and Nurses do what they love and are good at. Let Free Market enterprise determine success/failure again. Is the Doc is a butcher or a hack? Yeah, some are going to die, but his career won’t last long enough to make it a huge problem. And let Civil law be the arena to handle malpractice, without a corporate umbrella to shield the incompetent

Ah, but that brings forth another problem that I will touch on before I wrap this piece up,,,

And the Education,,, That one is taking hits left and right since Coronaphobia and it’s ongoing demise. People are paying far more for education these days, either outright in tuitions, or vicariously in taxes, but the end products have become liabilities across the board. When we spend more, per capita, for education than any other country in the world and yet we are ranked quite low on the lists of ‘developed countries’ (thirteenth of some such if’n I recall correctly,,,). Our STEM programs are taking the hits as well because the basics are having the bar lowered in “Equity” to make those not capable feel better about themselves. (positive feedback loop, NEVER a good thing.). Add in the scenario being played out with the ‘don’t say gay’ bill in Florida(that doesn’t even mention the word Gay) and you see what our education system has evolved into and it has nothing to do with the THREE R’S. (and most of my readers know that I am always ready to jump on the soapbox railing about how fucked our edjumikation (indoctrination) system has become. Of course seeing the infiltration of Marxist and Gramsci ideologies permeating our institutions, both higher and lower, it was just a matter of time before the basics would be dropped off altogether, wasn’t it? Nope, The current trends in Education need scrapped and we need to return to locally controlled, locally funded education, with PARENTAL controls. Another of those points that needs addressed before the big changes can take place IMO; IE parents that need to ACT like parents, not just funding for their genetic spawn for others to raise.

and I don’t even want to go(but will) into the 367versions of gender being pushed around like tokens of privilege. Still very much the “Male/Female/Hermaphrodite and THATS IT for gender” philosphy. Gay, Necro, pedo, Trans, whatever those things are, ARE NOT gender; those are sexual fetishes and ARE A CHOICE, or a mental illness that needs addressed. As I was saying to Sis just a day or so ago “What someone does behind closed doors AS LONG AS BOTH PARTIES ARE CONSENTING ADULTS, means nothing to me. You can even tell me, and I might even be sympathetic to you, but DO NOT TRY TO FORCE ME TO ACCEPT YOUR SHIT!!!!” and most definitely do not use ROL to make it so. Seems to me that most states have Sodomy laws on the books, and the only time I have heard of them being ‘enforced’ was in cases of underage victims/Rapes. Even ROL recognizes “Consent ” these days, in those cases where people wanna pack fudge,,, And I haven’t heard of any cases where some homosexual was jailed, or executed for their fetish HERE IN THE US, but I sure have heard of that happening in the ME. Y’all may wanna tone down a bit before you piss off enough “normies” that they decide the Muzzies have the right of it. (and I have to laugh at the silence of the Feminazi’s in the case of Lia whatshisname winning the womens swimming competition. Talk about wearing the pie in the face,,,,). That whole gender thing is NOT part of the saving I see needed.

but the napkin math. The numbers presented, and while I didn’t verify the math involved, are reminiscent of times gone by. People today can’t fathom making $.13/hour or such. They don’t see the ‘value’ that has been erased since those days when people would consider that ‘pretty decent’. They don’t understand that at that time, a flipping quarter would buy a GOOD meal at a restaurant, including the drink. A pint of beer off the tap at a bar may have cost a nickle then. Even in recent times in my world, I worked for a man that paid me a dollar an hour. Payable in Silver coins of face value. At that time, I was ‘making’ anywhere from $14/hour to $21/hour depending on the rate of the day. That rate had nothing to do with how much work I put forth either, I busted my chops for that buck an hour because it was better than anything else being offered around my area then. (oh, and how the Infernal Rectum Stuffers HATEZ coinage for wages. They can’t keep tabs on that sort of pay.). I don’t always agree with Aesop, but his point is one I have been trying to make for years, and while some people get it, most others only see the numbers, not the real values. Even at current flooding of currency in the markets, going back onto a gold standard, or some equivalent, would be shocking, but the end result would be STABILITY. The only other option is tacking on extra zeroes, and we all saw how that worked for Zimbabwe. The Federal Reserve is NOT one of those things we need to save.

And then you have the Media. Media has always been biased. At one time, there were as many newspapers in NY as there were political groups. Each had a bias towards reporting what they stood for. And you could read several to get a fair shake on what the truth was. NOW, well, bought and paid for is what our media is. That i have to read overseas media to filter through the crap on these shores is the very thing Orwell warned us about when writing about the MINITRU. And while I don’t believe Orwell would be shocked by the events of the day, he would be quite dismayed that his warnings were so blithely ignored.(or was it that some took it as an instruction manual instead????). What to do about the media??? Can’t buy them out unless you are at the level of those that currently own them: Only thing I can see is to create anew in other venues and hope to grow an audience (Blogging?, SocMed? gotta stick to your guns, right? Here I am.) Nopes, dont wanna toss the Enemedia any life preservers.

and that is really what is needed. Shadow worlds that operate alongside the current fucking mess so that when said mess finally collapses under its own weight of regulation and obfuscation, there is already a structure ready to take its place. (And I could put up several links here for suggestions but to be honest, there are just to danged many ti list without making this post a cluttered mess.) It sounds like a pipe-dream, but there is NO OTHER WAY, or as one said “replace the tyranny a thousand miles away, with a thousand tyrants one mile away.” And there will be the creatures that created the mess we are in now, trying to fill niches in the new system. That will be the biggest threat to its survival. We saw it with the Tea-parties, we saw internal squabbles tear apart the PatComs, and we squabble still about details. All I can say is; Break down your local area into what MORALLY will withstand the tides coming and BUILD from that moral foundation. If it be using the members of a church to build that foundational group, then DO THAT,,, Again, read “Dies the Fire” to get an idea of what building group will look like if we DON’T get that shadow world built.

But I think we can all agree, that what we have is NOT going to last much longer. And a part of me thinks if some of the speculation about a third term of Oblammy-o-boy, wiggling his way in through a loophole,,,, Well, if that happens, I think the kick off won’t be too far along the road. Or the Implosion as the rest of the world fully realizes that what was is no longer and those greenbacks they have been using are toilet-paper (and many aren’t all that far from it now,,,) There may not be a new reserve in BRICS, but I wouldnt be at all surprised to see a mass exodus from the USDollar into some other basket currency.


Thats how I am feeling right now.   Adrift in space, no destination, just drifting along, going with the flows and hoping for,,,



I can’t even put my finger on WHAT, just something.   One of the things I have heard several times over the last 96 hours, in person, and in electronic words “I’m just waiting for someone to do something!”.   IE, someone to step of the porch, or some atrocity to kick off ‘the party’,,,, Something.

I see all of the attacks on a world society, and there is ‘some plan’ in place to make the world in the image of whatever group holds the reins this week, but there is ZERO cognizant reason behind everything other than ‘destroy that which we despise’.   

My.question becomes “How can you despise the very system that ALLOWS you to exist and grow?”  It’s almost like someone hating their very parents for raising them well.  I can understand some abuse victim hating their abusive parents (which amazingly is a rarity, they may not love them, but they tend to dismiss the abuse to ‘thats just how they are’ and insulate themselves from it, psychologically and spiritually.) but to hate that which frees you from such things as subsistence living, and allows you room to be the biggest piece of cockroach turd known to humanity and STILL be successful????    

One part of what I am seeing is a positive.   Its really only a symptom of things, but it shows that we may have good things forthcoming sooner than “you will own nothing and be happy”.

Georgia passes Constitutional Carry and Kemp promises to sign it.

Thats what, Twenty 25 now?  A full half of the States have used the Tenth to uphold what shouldn’t have ever been in question.    (and I don’t give a hot damn about carry laws, If I feel I need to carry, I do, open or not.   It is MUCH nicer to be able to leave it openly on my hip than tucked in a waistband,,,,).  As Heinlein said “An Armed Society is a POLITE society”. I notice that those states that have done the ConCarry move, seem to have lower crime rates over those that are still Soviet level of Blue.  

My hope currently rests on the turmoil we are witness to in the world economic scene as well as the SuperPower Government Empires Implosion (of which the economy things are a symptom.).  I could even see China getting fractured when the implosion hits maximum speed.   I would have no problems with the US breaking up into the individual states they already claim, with NO Cementing FEDGOV.   It may be chaotic at first, but there IS a precedent for that situation already in place, and that precedent is a fairly recent invention in human history.  Well, not really, but it faded for many centuries after Rome fell.   But Fluid borders and changing states is far more common over the span of history than the rock solid borders and superpower empires we have been witness to the 100+.

Feudalism?   Maybe, but there is something that will resist it.  WE KNOW DIFFERENT NOW.   We know why, and how to keep cities clean and healthy, not second guessing things or using ‘magic’ to cure our ills.   I think if the infrastructure of the net can survive the implosion, the recovery from it will be quite short.   

Sorry, I’m feeling scattered as I write this, and I am going to drop it in the inbox as is, and hope it makes some sense to y’all.   I’ll work on something later when I can focus.

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keeping this one simple, NO LINKS

Just me talking out loud and may meander a bit: just follow along.

I really thought that with the COviDiocy Narrative falling apart was a sign that, COLLECTIVELY, the Human Species was on its way back to sanity. Guess it just goes to show, that Goebbels was right.   Feed the lie, no matter how big and the people will begin repeating it for you.   I watch on other sites, in comments, and see Obviously intelligent people regurgitating the Media spin as if it were gospel sent down from on high.   

One Key point.  Of all, ALL the talking and talking before Putin sent in his troops, Putins message was the ONLY ONE that never veered course. There were times where he BEGGED “Listen to my words” but the message was always ignored by those with the means.  Even now as tactical considerations force changes in actions, his message is still the same.  Buffer zone against NATO, allowing Soveriegn Russian peoples a say, and De-militarize the Buffers.   

Is Putin a THUG? Yes, but all Poly-Tickian’s are THUGs.  I have argued that case multiple times.  And yet most of those that argue against me aren’t seeing that they are supporting THUGS by endorsing “THE BIG LIE” and we need to squash Russia/oust Putin/get vaxxed/ vote Dem/ respect pronouns,,,.   Personally, I wouldn’t mind seeing the Weekend “Heads on Pikes” bowl as alluded to by a commenter. One big issue with it though: At what point do WE become the THUG.   And by creating such an event, someone MUST become the THUG to make the determination that someone else is a traitor/tyrant/AINO.(American in Name Only)

Pandoras box indeed. Do YOU really want to go down that path? I don’t.

I’m tired.   I am watching the world rip itself apart because of serious communication issues: the same issues Conservatives have with Lefties.   There is ZERO DIALOGUE OR DEBATE.   When someone says, THIS IS MY LINE, and you keep pushing the issue, writing Sanctions, giving aid, or igniting revolutions, you are POKING THE BEAR, and eventually that BEAR is going to eat your face off.

Maybe this leads up to what Dopey-Joe was trying to sell us about Build Back Better: IE, He intends to Burn the whole world down so that we HAVE TO BUILD BACK.    I dunno, but seeing truly intelligent people spewing artificial talking points without doing ANY due diligence of questioning the LYING MEDIA that has been LYING for TWO FRICKIN’YEARS (and the evidence mounts but of course, the WAR has sidelined ANY discussion about that, now hasn’t it?). Seriously, you have been lied to for two straight years; about coronphobia, fraudulent elections, dangerous gene therapies, etc. You were starting realize it, maybe even say something about it, and then “WAR” and suddenly you trust the Media again?   

Gullible much?

All I want is to make my way in the world with as little interference of Government as possible.   Paying taxes galls me, but I do it so the THUGS will leave me alone.  But the Hidden taxes we are seeing come to light (called inflation) are eating away at my ability to make my own way.  I know that I am not alone in this.   Fuel costs are just the tip of the iceberg, the hidden 90% below the water line will start to be felt across the board in the next few weeks.   And you have Pee-Lousy saying we need to stop buying oil from Russia.  (and we started buying oil from Russia to offset shutting down the Keystone Pipeline and other Oil production) She thinks this will quell any Empire building they have in mind , (debatable aspect of whats going on, seeing how Putin has never veered from his message AND continually shows he is a TRUE Nationalist with his Country FIRST, Unlike OUR “representatives” who are continually showing they are willing to sell out to whomever will kick back that 10%,,,,  Even to the point of risking Nuclear Annihilation, and they are skirting that particular , But I digress)   She either doesn’t understand that cutting off Russian Oil to the US after shutting down our OWN oil production is going to do one thing only and HURT RUSSIA ISN’T IT. OR, she knows it, and WANTS to destroy what’s left of our economy.   If you really want to hurt Russia, OPEN THE PIPELINES.  DRILL BABY DRILL.   Get the flow of oil going so hard and fast that the price drops into the negative zone (remember when people were paying others to take the oil off their hands in 2016-17?   Thats because the flow was so fast they couldn’t off load it and it was costing them money to ‘store it’ at the shipping points.).  BUT NOESSSSS,   Can’t stop the Green Plan.  Can’t stop the Great Reset. They want SLAVES who own nothing are are ‘happy’ (wonder when the mandatory xanax prescriptions will roll out? Maybe right after they eliminate cash,,,,) 

These Geriatric Pustules don’t give a hot damn about the Country, its Future or YOU for that matter.   They are all stinking rich via Graft from shady political deals, not actual business savvy, and THEY HAVE THEIRS AND US UNWASHED DEPLORABLE SERFS need to shut up and do as we are told. It isn’t about MONEY, its about POWER and they mean to have and hold it even at the cost of destroying the very thing that produces that power. (I have no problem with the Rich: I aim to get to “well off” myself. I DO have a problem with CON-Artists, and our Government is flat full of them.)


Know what I really want?   I just want for one day, just one day, the veil of deception be lifted from everyones eyes.  EVERYONES.   If I could ask God for one miracle, it would be for that to happen for just twenty four hours.      

*sigh*.   God said he would no longer interfere, though some say he ended the world in water the first time, the second time it will be in fire.   

If THE FRAUD keeps up, that is all I can see in our future.


As I said yesterday, it was time to take the kayak formerly known as Serena out for the very first float. In this time loop, I missed a full two months of water time: the first go-round, Serena had her first float the day before Turkey day. This round, I didn’t even have the skin on the boat until after the New Year roll over. Reasons, but I finally managed to do the deed.

No pictures. The water was 40° and I was dressed for such and since I was alone, decided to forego any distractions like GPS, Phone, extra paddle, paddle float and bilge pump. Just an easy little paddle around the bay of one of my regular put-ins. The wind was kicking HARD and I didn’t want to get out on open water, solo, in a new to me boat. Prudent too, because at one point the wind picked up and I could see the wake pattern shift as the boat was pushed laterally while moving forward. Interesting aspect, she did not weathercock: she held her heading even though she was being pushed sideways. No meed for a skeg on this girl!!! She is completely weather neutral. (No ‘good’waves so I dont know how she handles chop other than the frog ripples kicked up in the bay. Those don’t even register anymore.)

But her new name is SELKIE. And I am IMPRESSED. Great initial stability, solid wall secondary, even though she rides an inch higher in the water than Serena did. Easy hip snaps(though I didnt try a roll yet), perfect tracking even in wind, a little edge and she turns fast,and. FAST. Two or three good strokes of the blades and she is moving quick from a standing start. A couple more and she is cruising and then easy peasy maintain momentum strokes. No GPS so dont know what cruise is, but from experiance, I’d say 4.3 is close. And she holds it with so little effort, I could paddle all day and still be energized at the tail end.

Oh, and that hard decked cockpit? Frickin AWESOME. Control is rock solid with those thighbraces in there, and the adjustable footplate I made worked perfectly. (Tempted to find a ratchet system from an old IR reggie backband and improve what I have, but no rush)

She is gonna live on the truck now and gear will stay there as well. I intend on paddling at least once a week for the rest of the year. My drytop and other gear did just fine while trying my hipsnaps ▪︎(cold head but I do have just didn’t use, a neoprene hood.) My reactor Pogies always blow my mind at how warm they keep the forefeet, even when dipping them in 40°water repeatedly. So cold weather ain’tagonnabe a show stopper anymore.

(I promise action pics/vid soonest, just not this time)

▪︎ there was some leakage around the cockpit while hip snapping. I think, dunno for certain, that my spray skirt was not seated properly behind me. But the end amount of water in the boat was less than a 16oz bottle worth so I am not overly concerned with it.

Straits of Meh!

So here we are, The Good Ship Dio’s Workshop, aground, rudder fouled and rigging shot through by ScamDemic fallout.  First Mate Voodoo is running about 30% both physically and mentally, and the passengers, Grumpykat and her boys, are wondering when we are going to hit a good port of call, not this barren mess they see off the bow.   The WindGenny (called J.O.B.) is moving enough electrons to keep the bilge pumps running so the lower holds aren’t flooding, but not much more. We may be aground, but we are not sunk, so there is still hope of better to come.(and the corollary of that: could get a shit ton worse, but we’ll strive for the better.)  

TIme for Cap’n Dio to strike out land-bound and get a lay of the area, maybe see if any of the charts we have on hand match what I see.  Currently I am looking at a peak on this shoreline; a peak I am calling mount WTF!!!  and I will head there to get a better view horizon to horizon.  Maybe there is a way off this rock yet.

We all make choices, some times those choices work for us, other times against.   Some of my choices, solid when made, did not hold up to current events or the black swan of a purpose made virus and the gullibility of sheep.   Nor were my choices made with the idea that maybe, the federal government would make the same stupid fricking mistakes it made in the 1920s and collapse an economy.   If you aren’t feeling it yet, stick around, you will.    While I knew the economy was tanking, I missed the ‘slowly, then all at once’ aspects of things.   And I admit, I floundered in the good times of Trumps economy.   When I should have been sticking to my guns, I started playing a bit more than I should have.

Went to a local grocery store, one where I am a regular and have a decent rapport with the manager.   They were in the middle of a floor renovation this last week.  Took out one entire row of shelving, split the remaining rows in half and ‘added’ a middle walkway through them.   I asked what was going on (this is not a big place) and was told, byt a regional type working there at the time ; “we’re remodeling to bring the store up to date”.   Talked to the manager as I was leaving and her response was “they cut the shelving down to make it look like we have more stuff.   Too many products we can’t get anymore.”

Think this is going to wrap up with some Selection cycle?   I think not.  

I personally think this is just the top of the hill and that the snow is still falling while the ice shelf below the snow is creaking frightfully.   I haven’t paid much attention to what the markets are doing the last month or so, but I would say that they look a lot more shaky than that ‘To Infinity and beyond” shit they have been doing since 2008.

Choices.    I have some choices to make and sooner than later.   You all know one of them and that one keeps getting put off; I won’t go into details of that right now.   Another choice is to take one of the several offers I always have laying around, but there is that ‘grass is greener’ thing, that is never the case.   One master traded for a different master is still being owned by someone else.   And that is where my angst with all of this is laying.   I don’t WANT another J.O.B.  

I’m getting a view, and looking for some landmarks to shoot an azimuth for: Figure out just where the hell I am currently.   Maybe I can get something to make sense on the Straits of Meh.


I wrote the above yesterday afternoon, and scheduled it.  Between then and what you are reading now, I chanced upon this post by Sarah at the Mad Genius Club.  This is her group of fellow writers and a hella resource for up-n-coming writers (such as meself) so may not be for everyday reading for most peeps, but is on my daily check out.   With all the fun and games of fouled rudders and no bearings on upside-down charts, I missed this post the other day.

Let me face one fact, right up front: My problem right now is as simple as this: Depression.   Yup, I’m feeling more than a touch depressed right now, between Dawg, finances, and lack of relief by kayak/camaraderie of friends, I hit my slump.    What really tipped the scales was seeing my tax documents for the year,,,,,     No need to share that figure, but it was quite a bit lower than I expected, to the tune of ten grand lower.   

Soooooo,,,,,,   I read Sarahs “Be the unicorn” and sat back and thought about things a bit.   She’s right!!! In my mind, (and it’s something I work hard against) I am so flipping average as to be flat boring.   Its a self image thing, one reinforced over decades by some that would have me be ‘just that!”.  High school counselors, some of my teachers, a few acquaintances that I thought were friends, all fed the self-image that I am not worth the mould that God made for me.

*cough* Look out on your porch at those kayaks YOU built, Dio.    Look on that book shefl where the books YOU wrote are sitting, Look at the ‘me wall'(I can’t, its in boxes still) with pictures and backstage passes from all the years touring with ‘rockstars’.  Look at the White House Communications Citations from 2004,,,,,,,,,,

No, I am not average, no matter what my self-image is.   I may not be that wildly successful person that my Da wants of me, but, DAMMIT, I’ve done shit,,,, DO SHIT, that ‘average’ people only dream of.  (and thats part of why I don’t want a J.O.B.    I have enough skills and talents that I should be able to make my own way without the ‘one good day job’.). And with the writing thing, I may be way behind on ‘paying my dues’, I am quite aware of that, but that doesn’t mean there aren’t ways to make it pay SOMETHING, in the meantime.  I am no Terry Pratchett, nor Heinlein, but I can spin a tale, and get people to forget about things around them for just a few minutes. Thats not ‘nothing‘.  

Still, I need to get my bearings.  Things are changing in the world, in my world, and seriously, after seeing that W2 for 2021,,,,,    No, that shit can’t stand.   I did ‘alright’ seeing how I am not buried in debt, but that level of income does not bode well for moving forward either.   As I stated above, the J.O.B. has been keeping the bilge dry, but sure isn’t powering the radar or GPS or the radio in the Goodship Dio’s Workshop.

NO, This is NOT a bleg for donations.  If you feel the need to support me in anyway, buy some of my books and give them out.  I would much rather that than someone sending me ‘sympathy monies’.   (Sarah had a special case and as many donators said, they were just returning the favor of good work provided non-gratis, previously.   I know I am not in that boat, yet.  )

I’ll be working on that ‘getting my bearings’ for a bit-while yet; I don’t jump just because it looks good; I like a certain amount of insurance/assurance as well.  (and no, OhioGuy, the lottery ticket DIDN’T Pan out, or this depression would be kicked like a bad habit.). I’ll keep posting, just wanted y’all to know that I ‘feel better’ now.  Knowing is half the battle, Right GIJoe? 

ya might be addicted,,,

Slow day.  bored kittehs cuz it’s far too cold for bare paws to go outside for very long.  No need to make booties for them, they wouldn’t wear ’em anyways and I like my skin intact: ever tried to force a kat into doing something for its own good that it thought otherwise of?    


Ya might be addicted,,,

Yah, I might be.  

Yesterday eve, chatting with B about life the universe and kayaking, I brought all my cold water gear inside from the truck and was going through things.  Mostly to make sure I have it all together, but also to make sure gaskets and seams were still functional.   Decided to do a little testing of a sort: I doffed my street duds and climbed into all that gear.  Quick-dry long-sleeve undershirt, long sleeve fleece top, fleece vest.  5 mm wetsuit bottoms and dive boots.  Then the dry top.  Gaskets feeling a little sticky so I 303’ed them and donned that ‘straight jacket’.   Slide into the sprayskirt and sealed the double tunnel of the top to it.  (part under the skirt, part over it) then the PFD just because I am doing ‘a test’.   I am actually getting sweaty at this point.   Then, out onto the porch with a good book.  

It was 22 degrees out there and I always have a pretty decent breeze blowing off the hills. Wind chill is closer to 8 degrees.  Full (semi) dry gear and a breeze and I was out there for over an hour doing jack shit and the only thing that the cold managed to get, was my NOSE.   I never felt the cold air except on bare skin.   When I paddle in the cold, I add a neoprene dive hood but I didn’t need that to stay warm.  I think if I had worn it, I would have been sweating buckets under all that gear.   As for the handwear, I used to use gloves or mittens, but since I bought my pogies, I don’t bother.  My hands stay plenty warm even wet with the pogies.  Not the top of the line type, but they are neoprene with the ‘reactor’ fleece liner.   If its above 40 degrees, your hands WILL sweat in them.  (they were not a part of this test since I do know what they can do, and they stay fixed to the paddle in any case.   Hard to read a book with your hands incased in pogies.)

Now, I know that this isn’t the best test of my gear, and that I need to get things wet to really KNOW what it can handle, but I have done that in the past, just not down to the temperatures we had today.   I still won’t paddle in this crap without a wingman; Too easy for things to go sideways.  But I feel that what I have will work well enough, especially if I stay IN the boat and not pop that skirt.   I know the drytop will keep me completely dry so long as that skirt stays on the cockpit.

No, I am not suffering from kayak withdrawal or anything ;-P.   

My biggest worry with this test was Grizz.   I had to keep his attention off of me to keep those sharp meathooks away from a $300 drytop.   One little hole and the term is bunk.   It may not leak much, but the idea is for it to not leak AT ALL.  It’s why it has heavy rubber gaskets at the neck and wrists.   I know it doesn’t leak at those points from rolling Ghost while wearing it.   The only part that is gonna leak is around the waist IF immersed, and why I want to stay in the boat when the water starts trying to make like a solid.

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No kayaking THERE eh?

BUT, that test made me want to go out even more but reinforced that I REALLY REALLY WANT SPRING TO HURRY ITS ASS UP!!!.

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I hate feeling like I am getting ready for a shuttle launch just to go paddling.   Much rather this type of weather and after paddle event.

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come on SPRING!!!!! Wants away for a couple days,,,,

Not happy

Sorry for the lack of posting, been busy, its cold, and days are short, so I squeeze in what I can while I can.  Staying up on the latest outrage of the FRAUD is at the low end of that list (but I do keep a weather ear out for sudden shifts in tyranny to make sure I am not caught broadside)

Trying something a little different with the kayak.  Its not new; others have done it and reported good results, but I am not happy with what I am seeing.   Ok, gotta bring y’all up to speed here.  In both Serena and Duh!kee, I used a two part polyurethane system from Spirit-line.   Good results, but it can be finicky about repairs and re-finish.   Most people just ‘deal’ until such time as its time to re-skin.   Well, this time around I chose to go with regular spar varnish and pigment it like I do the two-part (very successfully at that).   


It soaks into the fabric very well, maybe better than the two part stuff does (less solids, more carrier solvents).  and it takes pigment pretty well too: nothing separating out when it gets on the fabric.   BUT,,   That finish is totally lacking any luster or appeal.   Its a smooth satin and I had to double check to make sure I hadn’t picked up a satin varnish ( ( didn’t, its high gloss).    It looks ‘Okay’, but it certainly lacks the ‘POP!” that the two part gave to Serena.   


And I am to far along and committed to a system to make the change to the other.   Heck, once that first line of coating went on, I was committed with no recourse for correction.   
But I will not be using it again.   

And I already told myself “Self, you shoulda tried it on a peice of scrap FIRST”.   Self responded that at the price I am paying for spar varnish, I was committed to the system and a test strip would have done little to my resolve.  Both selves are right.   I would have found a use for the spar varnish elsewhere, but at $18/qt and I bought a gallon, I was determined to use the crap on this boat.    Should’ve stuck to ‘tried and true’.   Live and learn, and I did learn and won’t be repeating this little screw-up.

Honestly, it looks like I painted the hull with a satin house paint, not varnish.   Blech!!!  

On other fronts, I have a 2 gallon pot of chicken parts stewing on the woodstove, and will be adding my dumplings in tomorrow after I skim out all the bones and other inedible parts.  That will keep me fat and happy for a week.   And the Kittehs are digging on the ‘other parts’ that they were given.   Grizz is especially fond of the livers and did something out of character for him: He growled at Mamakat when she went sniffing at his share.

It’s winter, chicken n dumplin’s are winter food and after a week of Chili, I needed a change-up.   (but DAMN that last bowl of Chili was EX-SEE-LANT!!!).  

May have a winter paddle forthcoming with B.   Watching weather and if things look stable, we are planning on a day trip out in the frosty cold waters of somewhere here local.   Maybe my fugly boat will get to make her first trip.   Even though the ‘paint job’ is shitte, there were a lot of cool features added in that I really want to try out.  That hard deck, the bulkhead foot brace and a slight shift in the hull design.   Yeah, I should make one change, try it out then incorporate it into another boat with another change: thats proper protocol when doing things like this, but then, I am anything but a proper kayak designer.   I figure if any one of the changes is bad, I will know right up front seeing how this is ‘almost’ the same boat that I started with.  (same length and beam, new ribs but same profile other than less rocker, which is a change I do know the results of.)

Ok, Grizz figured out I am seated and not moving, so its lap time for him.   I’ll post more soon.

addled mind, addled day

I really need to start working on a full time internet access point here at the homestead. I sat down to write no less than four posts today, and the lack of internet access ruffled my feathers enough that I just gave up. Its later in the day and the signals have settled down enough that I can now write,


Certainly not any of the posts that I tried to write earlier since they were blown out of the water before leaving the dock,,,


I wasn’t sitting on my duff doing nuttin’ all day. Been quite busy as you will see. I had that coaming about 2/5ths done last night, and today was spent ‘putting the polish’ on it. Mostly warping wood so that it followed curves.

This isn’t so much woodworking as sculpting. Each piece glued into place, then rough shaped with a flap-disc, a non-orbital sander to follow up and knock down the rough marks, followed by hand sanding of three grits to get baby butt smooth. I even went over it with some double aught steel wool to get that silky feeling to the final surface before a light wetting down with water. Another round with the steel wool when that was dry, wipe down with a dry cloth, and ready for varnish. I am not going to forget that lesson of needing a middle-man with fiberglass/resin.

I even put two of my skirts on it to make sure things were good to go. The XL deck skirt fit best, but the L deck went on too, with only a little bit of a fight.

And here she is in all her glory with linseed oil soaked frame and hard-deck coaming under varnish. I will do the glass later this weekend, or even over the Christmas break (between family events).

I just noticed that there is a plethora of dust on that gunwale and it looks ‘dry’. It isn’t, just looks that way with all the dust on top. Wiped down, it is just as dark as the fore gunwale.

Glass, final coat of varnish when that is cured and sanded, then SKIN TIME.

Ordered my two-part but it looks like it won’t be shipped till after Christmas. That means that I may not have this kayak finished until sometime in the New Year. Depends on when I get that goop. Skinning it won’t be that rough, but I don’t want the skin sitting there getting dirt on it while waiting either. It will be a situation of skin it, shrink it, and goop it up as fast as possible. Don’t want any fish-eyes in this skin like Serena had. (no one ever said anything about them to me, but I saw them EVERY DANGED TIME I was around that boat. kind of irritating.)(and with kittehs running rampant and bored by foul weather, even the best efforts would end up with dirt and gunk on it if I let it sit around for more than 5 minutes. That was my biggest problem making that coaming: Grizz kept wanting to help and with Cyanoacrylate, that was NOT going to be a good thing. yeah, I used quite a bit of superglue putting that coaming together. Better that then the alternative of wood glue and needing days to set up. The bond is tougher than the surrounding wood and I ‘filletted’ the joints with sanding dust to add strength. I can pick up the kayak by the lip and not hear any creaking or warnings of something about to give: She is TOUGH.)

It’s getting dark out there now, and supposedly the temps are going into the basement tonight. (cloud cover usually keeps them steady, but the forecast is near freezing by daybreak. Lovely,,,,). SO, I need to start getting the wood stove ready, just in case. (if temps hover over 45, I leave it alone and dress accordingly, otherwise, I am opening every door and window by 3am to cool the house down and not kill pets or myself.) and now you know where all those little end-cuts and shavings and what not that happen when building a kayak go to (and why I prefer building them at this time of year, besides the fact that the water is witches teat cold,,,)

More tomorrow as I catch up and maybe one or two of those blasted out of the water posts will make a come-back.

Its the details that kill ya

Alternate title: Sunday’s a bust

Spent lots of time energy and resources setting up the cockpit deck on my kayak.  The resources being the fiberglass and resin more than the wood.  The wood in this case is fine, but little details that I didn’t know, caught me, bit my ass and wasted a several hours of my time and more than a little of my working capital in wasted resources.

I had the kayak in the rafters of the house last night to help with the cure of the fiberglass and the linseed oil I had soaked the frame in.  The linseed oil did its thing, and the glass did something else entirely.  Oh, it cured, cured good and hard too.  But this morning when I took it out, that deck looked as wrinkly as the surface of a peach pit.  NOT the surface I was shooting for to say the least.   SO, dive into the nets and see if there is something I did, didn’t or need to do.  Five minutes of research and I hit the ‘FacePalm’ moment. 

First order of business is to get all of that resin and glass off the deck.  (interestingly enough, the interior side where i used the Matte, did just fine, and I will tell why as this goes along). Bust out the scaper to get the bigger chunks and keep my glass dust to as low as possible.  Then the sander with 40 grit pads to get the rest.  Gotta take it all the way down to the wood.   Two hours later and several discs of paper, back to ground zero.

So what detail did i miss?  Seems that wood and resin are not completely copasetic in bonding; they need a middleman so to speak.   That middleman is varnish: Varnish loves wood and soaks in creating a mechanical bond to the wood.  Resin loves varnish and ‘mates’ with it to create a chemical bond (stronger). But resin is a larger polymer and can’t absorb into the wood the way the varnish does.  Additionally, the resin “gasses off’ and that is what caused the wrinkles, gasses under the glass and the outer surface had cured already so couldn’t vent.

So why did my matte work where the fabric didn’t?  Rough surfaces.   I didn’t do much prep on the inner side of the wood since it won’t be seen and there were lots of saw marks, grooves and what not that the resin could get into to make a bond.   I also used more hardener in it to speed up the cure since it was getting cold and I didn’t want to fart around too much.  With the matte being thicker, was able to hold the heat from the reaction better, so cured cleaner, inside to out versus what the fabric side did.

The deck is all sanded now, minimal traces of the old resin (mostly in the joints where the wood comes together.  it stuck very well to the glues in the joints) but the whole deck is flat and smooth as a babies butt now.   One heavy coat of spar varnish on it and its sitting in the sun letting  the heat of daylight drive that varnish into the surface.   

I did not know that little detail of the varnish middleman or I would have done that first off.   Its those little details that will kill you.

So was it a wasted weekend?  Not at all; I revel in my failures as they are the BEST teachers. (so long as they don’t kill ya that is). This is not a mistake I will make again, EVER.    So I may be out a little cash on materials, (not in the budget this week, what with a truck in the shop and hours being down,,,   I’ll make it happen though.) But my knowledge has grown, and I consider the price paid a minor tuition in the school of hard knocks and busted knuckles.

It’s time to go off and do my domestic duties for the week, Not much I can do on the kayak until that varnish cures, and I need to pick up more glass and resin anyways.   Just a little wrinkle in my time loop this round, one that tells me this one has been completely re-written for something better.  Looking at the lines of the boat as she sits in the horses all ‘nekid’ without a skin, I see a sleek torpedo of a boat: My itch to get on water will have to wait till she is complete.

More later, probably about the cannibal feast I am witnessing in the EneMedia, with links to others seeing similar.   

Sunday ‘Git-r-dun’! apologies for late post

Been busier than I could express on this end.  Between the domestic duties thing, laundry, straighten up after a four day weekend of running hells-bells all over SE-KY, and ‘Oh yeah, there’s a kayak frame on my porch’ realizations,,,,

While doing the laundry, I cleaned up those parts I cut out on Wednesday, drilled alignment holes and ran both through a belt sander to get the edges lined up to perfect match.  (yeah, redneck machining trick 101).  Later on, Dad and I went to my Uncles place for lie-swapping and cowboy coffee (that shit WILL make you hair stand on end!!!).  He has a  48” Bench Brake and I was able to get a perfect bend in those two parts as needed.  Pics will be posted, just not today since I haven’t the band width to upload those files here on the hill.   

Get home, loaded my side porch with a couple loads of Cherrywood that has been seasoning for about three years.  My dad is trying to clear out his wood shed of the dead weight to clear space for all of this pin-oak he picked up the past couple of weeks.   No worries, I have no issues taking what he doesn’t want.  Makes what i have in my shed last that much longer and the way this year has started; every little bit is gonna be needed IMO.   And I kept tripping over that kayak frame on the main porch,,,,   Load up an armload of wood stack it, go in for something, and start noodling on the kayak,   “oh yeah, I gotta finish putting wood up”.  Back to loading wood,   noodle with the kayak, load wood, re-think what I was gonna do on the kayak, clean the stove out and start a new fire, sharpen my chisel so I can get clean cuts on the kayak,,,

You get the picture. Some days I multi-task pretty well, and not even realize it.   Sitting here, I look at all the stuff that I did get accomplished and swear to you I didn’t even TRY,,,  

She is almost ready for skin.  Setting up the deck stringers and that will be done shortly since I only need 4 small spacer blocks to finish that off. and she will be ready for skin.(but not today, the sun is gone and its getting colder than I care for out there.)


Still don’t have that coaming finished yet.   

Still looking for a donor’Yak for a cockpit I can use as a mold, and if I don’t see one soon, I am gonna break down and buy some marine grade plywood and go that route.   Skin is here and waiting on me, Dope is on its way and will likely be here before I am ready for it (but thats a plus.).   LOL,   funny how I ‘compromised’ and said I wasn’t going to cut that skin off until I had a coaming DONE, and here I am almost ready for new skin and still don’ t have that coaming.   Yah, I can be obstinate even with myself.

One thing I did that wasn’t ‘constructive’ was taking her off the cradles, putting her on the floor and sitting in her.  I wanted to finalize where my feet will be so I could set up the footpegs/sliding bulkhead (leaning towards a bulkhead setup)   She is gonna be a torpedo.   No rocker until you get past my ass and then it is very slight, maybe 2”.  She is gonna cut the water like a knife with very little wake.  The chisel point bow is going to slice waves instead of trying to climb them so she will be fast even in choppy water.   and there is just enough v-hull that edging should make her maneuverable without needing a rudder.   The shape is definitely ‘Swede form’ at the waterline so no need for a rudder to control tracking.(that may be partially true,  Wind may indicate need of a skeg or rudder, but until I have her out I won’t know if she is weather helmed or neutral, No/near zero rocker, she may be neutral in that aspect). 

Numbers that I can say for certain right now. Length 16’2” Beam 23”.   Loaded waterline 15’10” Beam @WL 20”.  Not as long as a surfski, but no wider than one, She won’t be much of a river-runner, but open water; she is gonna be a Barracuda.    Search for ‘barracuda attack’ on UToob and see what I mean.   And I THINK she will be much more stable than Duh!kee is.  More near flat hull where Duh!k has a sharp V almost her whole length.  The only time Duh!k feels stable to me is when the water is trying to stand up, and I don’t get out in storm waters often enough to need that “Bobber” attitude.

Working on a post for the AM, gonna have several links for ya: HIGHLY recommend you follow them, forward them to others and try to spread messages.  Kind of a “Make these Viral” bleg.  Look for that tomorrow.   Don’t want to put anything in this post on those lines for ‘reasons’,  you understand when you see them.

More tomorrow, stay tuned for that.   

kayaky NOPES mehbes, and oh-sh!t-yeahs

First up, NO, I am not letting the world at large slow me up in my personal endeavors, and neither should you.   I may get the depressions, blahs and what not, but I am not going to stop being ME, just because there are evil shits loose in the world that aim to make us serfs, slaves or DEAD.  

and with that little rant out of the way, onward to the point of this post in general.  

been doing the experimentin’ things, and was quite pleased with one in particular, nut just this morning, figured out that its a damned NOPE!!!

What that experiment entailed was trying to find a different material combination to make this kayak skin out of.   Materials in question, Ballistic nylon (known unit) Polypropylene cloth (unknown), combined with Two part Polyurethane,(well known) and polystyrene resin (known unknown) and combinations there-of.   Ballistic nylon and Polystyrene, rocking for coamings and other hard points, SUCKS for skin.   the resin doesn’t flex like it did early in the experiment process.  It now cracks, and cracks mean leaks.   A leaky boat is not my goal.   the two part is the way to go no matter what cloth I use, and the BN for making the hard points (vs the glass since its TOO fragile in those areas.  The polypropylene works for the skin, but nothing else no matter what I use for the resin.  And I like the polypropylene since I can shrink it with a heat gun and it is NOT hydroscopic like the BN is.   That was my biggest beef of all with Serena: if the humidity was high (or she had been capsized and filled with water) her skin would go all loose and floppy.  Not really an issue performance wise that I noticed, but she looked bad and it would take weeks for her to dry out enough to tighten back up.

Now, the Oh-Sh!t-Yeahs.    Single chines. 20211120 1324213818182277211228363 With the rocker knocked down to near nil, single chines look awesome on this hull.  What I am doing is a single chine between keel and gunwale, with a false chine at the base of the gunwale( to smooth the lines) that will allow some flex of the skin before it hits rib at the waterlines.  That set, she has a very shallow v at the cockpit area that rides true up to past the feet and well past the cockpit before converging towards the ends.   Very sweet liines that way and better cut into the water without plowing.  With that shallow V, she will have good stability in all waters even if she feels tippy in the calm.   She will feel tippy, but not nearly as much as her former self did.   The former ‘shallow v” was very short, less than 4 feet, and was almost useless with that radical rocker stem to stern.   The ONLY advantage of that rocker was maneuvering, and she was so daggum long, even that was a chore: she didn’t have that spin in place thing going like the Jefe does. (and the Jefe is ALL rocker in ALL directions)

Now the Mehbes:  Still have a couple ribs left over from redoing the original ones.  Ones that I replaced just because of changes in lengths or didn’t like the original bends with the new units installed.   And I think, I am going to use a couple of those ribs combined with fiberglass/resin to make the new deckbeams that need replaced.  I dropped rib seven in place of one of the deckbeams ‘just to get a look-see’ and the profile was encouraging.  Those ribs are well cured white-oak so a layer of glass wrapping them will be even stronger, and lighter than the 3/4” laminated beams I am replacing.    I will have the chines cut tomorrow, the wood is sitting in my rafter right now with the splice curing under clamps.   I should be able to lash it in before dark tomorrow and then, flip the old (new) girl over and start on the deck.  (I have the bow cutwater done, and the stern will be pretty quick too.  Pics of that forthcoming.)

And I am not worried about keeping to pure skin-on-frame materials for the build, nor strictly tied and mortis/tenon construction.   Yes, the keelson and chines are tied in, but that is not because its traditional (it is) but for flexibility of the frame as a whole.  I am not building a traditional Greenland type kayak, I am building MY version of what I have wanted, and what I found works for me.   (thanks Ghostboat for showing me a different path). I know the mortis and tenon build method works, as well as lashing: Duh!kee is still holding together after 3 years, me beating on her in less than optimal conditions, sinking her, capsizing her, and even jumping on her to show others that she is one tough boat.  Yeah, the method is tried and true and proven over centuries of use in bad conditions.   And it’s not like I have been a purist from the get-go anyways.  Using two part poly on synthetic skin, using synthetic sinew to lash the boat together,  Yeah, Not so much a purist as THIS IS BETTER, DO IT!  LOL

Apologies for the Hiatus.

just going through the routines currently.  Fighting a mild case of depression, a usual for me this time of year, and no need to delve into the ‘why’s’ as there is reason enough watching the world slowly devolve; like watching a dementia patient slowly slide into the final state.   Oh, wait, just like watching Emperor Poopy-pants the first discuss the economy by citing  “I. Pencil” for dummies after reading only the opening chapter.

Lots of good stuff out there on the webs,  Sarah’s pointing out that our IMMIVASION is nothing new and very much an old tactic for softening up a resident populace.  I take back my statements of “replacement population” and will resort to “INVASION FORCES”: in all reality, there are real fighters in that mess, and I have mentioned to keep an eye out for ‘strange conex boxes’ in obscure locations.   And if you find one before kick-off of the festivities, consider it an early Christmas for you and yours, distribute accordingly, and KEEP YOUR DAMNED MOUTHES SHUT!!!!

Just going through the routines.   Going to the J.O.B. every day, making sure to represent my skills the best way I know how, and watching the supply chain issues slowly creeping our way.  Granted, we have had supply side issues for months now, but I am beginning to see them stratify into my areas.   We are down to roughly half a bundle of pipe that I use for building most of our products.  A quick calculation tells me that if we don’t get a shipment in this Friday, I am on temporary leave until such time as we have the materials needed.   I currently have 4 pages of build notes, and those four pages easily burn through our existing stock and into another bundle, and NOT BE COMPLETE.   And those pages are added to daily.   

No, that’s not the cause of the depression.   Honestly, I could take the next month off and it wouldn’t hurt my feelings one bit.   Might dig into my finances, but it wouldn’t bother me to maybe get some of those other things done thatI get distracted away from by having the daily duty of making a paycheck, (and feeding four-feets, keeping the homefires burning (literally this time of year) and all the other stuff that accumulates on a single dood curmudgeon living on a hill in KY)

YAY,  Grizzy just brought me a very young mouse, quite dead, and looking pleased as punch with himself.   ANother problem that irritates the hell out of me this time of year, and my Furbabies are doing danged good at dealing with it.   (and when he isn’t looking, in the toilet it goes.  Don’t want him thinking I don’t appreciate his ‘gift’.)

One thing that messes with me this time of year, probably the trigger for my depression is loss of daylight.   I work through most of the daylight hours, then have almost none to work with for ME/MY PROJECTS, and I start feeling behind the eightball on things.   That usually leads to me scrambling to ‘catch up’ and that is ALWAYS when the mistakes start piling up.    I may not focus on “Perfect” but I hate redoing any work, especially due to me getting stoopid and (feeling) rushed.  I am also wating on the fabric for the kayak build.   Ordered, but, yet again, the company I ordered it through is sitting on things.   I may have to start digging for a different company to deal with that I can rely on.  This is the third time they’ve done this.  The last two times, Order confirmed, but nothing ever shipped.  At least they didn’t charge the card, even though it approved and showed transaction complete, it was never finalized on that end.   Just frustrating when you are counting on something to complete a project, and find you have even longer to wait as you look for an alternate source/product/material to replace the original idea.   At least this instance, this is a rebuild, and I am in no rush to complete since its colder than a witches teat in November (It is November Dio) and the water levels everywhere around here are sorely lacking for any reasonable paddle fun.   Like B says, most of the creeks are ‘frigging goat paths” right now.   Even the Cumberland river nearby is a ‘float scrape, scrape PORTAGE, float scrape” trip, and thats just in the first down-river mile from my place.   It may be awhile before I can test float the “Rebuilt Kayak carcass formerly known as Serena/now Selkie”, and I want to do it on river as I want the current for testing handling and stability.   Static water of an inland lake won’t do in this case.   Just fiddlin’ details that I am trying to correct in this build.

Oh, yeah, for the test float, I won’t be using the new (when it ships if it ships) skin.  I snagged a poly-tarp from the billboard guys and that will be my makeshift skin for the test float. (gonna look kinda funny with a giant cheeseburger design on the skin,,,, sure won’t be a permanent thing,,, )   Polyester shrinks under heat, so I can stretch the ‘skin’ on, then use a heat gun to tighten it up.  Its already waterproof so I don’t need to seal anything up for a test run.  Its not like I am going to try and roll it, and if I capsize, its a wet exit, swim for shore kinda day then.   I don’t see that as an issue though, Serena was stable as all get out and I am not changing much in the hull shape in the cross section, just the longitudinal.  If anything, she will be more stable since I am widening the beam by one inch and bring the CG closer to Keel by flattening that rocker.  (and anyone that ever saw me in Serena prior will choke on that ‘stable’ statement, her primary was shit, but her secondary was a brickwall.  She just ‘felt’ tippy in flat water, but she was stable as can be in wild water. A definite confidence builder when the waves started breaking on her bow.  Even with that ‘brickwall’ secondary, she was an easy roller, and surprised the hell out of me at the pool. ). Maybe I can get some serious work done on the frame this weekend and get closer to that test day.   As for a repeat of the time loop thing, not a complete fit this go-round.   I had Serena wrapped and tested prior to T-day in 2019, and skinned and sealed by December 1.  That may not happen again due to the skin supplier.   (one alternate, pricey, but doable, is from an airplane materials supplier.   Same concepts, and I can get NON-FAA certified material for this to save a little cash.  No need to have the FAA dealing with a silly single seat boat, eh?)

outside of my darkened thoughts, Da is doing good.  Bored, what with me gone during the days working, and not having much time between getting home and total darkness.   Came home today and he and a neighbor were playing with a backhoe and digging the ducks a larger wading pool.  Funny part is, they aren’t even HIS ducks.  They belong to a local Gentlewoman Farmer, but Da goes out and buys 50# sacks of feed for them (and her free-range chickens), built them a pond so they didn’t have to risk going to the river, and even built them a nest site under his porch “so if the weather turns, they don’t have to waddle home”.    He comes off like a mean grumpy bastard to most people, but the man has a soft heart for animals that most people would never guess at.  

I wonder where I get it.  LOL.    

Anywhoos, y’all take care, I’ll be back tomorrow with something more inline with the currents of this blog.   Just needed some ‘Me’ time.

Dark holes lead to dark thoughts: evening edition

Today, I re-read all of Metallicmans posts on upcoming events in the world.   Granted there are times where even I want to say “It can’t happen here” but I know better.   The ingredients for that particular entrée have been in the makings since the mid 1930s: and some may argue since 1917 when the Federal Reserve Act was passed in the dead of night on Christmas Eve by a handful of Toads to make it ‘Legal’.

Between the microscopic bugs raging war within my body, dark reading material, and the upcoming winter months and shortened daylight hours,,,   I’m feeling quite morose.

Yet I don’t stop thinking, EVER.   And my dark thoughts turned to ‘what can people that are just now waking up to the fact’ that THIS 



HT to Metallicman for this’ll

is all you need to remember about anything upcoming in our future.   

And what can those that are just now waking up, able to do with the fact that we are on the doorstep to whatever is coming?   Lots actually, it just requires a little forethought on resources available and needs.   There was one thing that I hammered into people that used to come to me for defensive handgun training.   Most all were women, single, some older, some younger, some well off, some borderline welfare,,,   The one rule I hammered hardest was, ANY gun is better than NO gun.   If a gal couldn’t afford much, a daggum Hi-Point 9 with a couple mags was less than a weeks paycheck working the grill at McDz. And despite the crap reputation that they don’t deserve, they are damned good pistols, if a little clonky.  Never had one FTF, or Stove pipe.   Did have one light strike, but it was with hard ass Romanian ammo.   No gun, you are a subject: as in Subject to the whims of the guy WITH the gun.  So, yeah, the newly woke to the upcoming games can still find something reasonable around.  BUT, that lead me to thinking about something else.   LISTS

We are all on lists.   We know that they keep telling us that, the fact that you can’t link certain websites on FB shows that there are lists all over the daggum place, and

Well,  I don’t worry about it anymore, cause I already know when they start gathering up those lists, I will not go quietly.  No need to elaborate on that, just that I know me, even if caught flat-footed, I am going to do a lot of damage to at least one jackboot.  But the newbies to this,,,, They are already freaking out about shit and to find that they get on a list by buying a gun will likely chill their desire to look for a gun.   Well, for them, there are ‘ways’.   Ask around, You don’t think those gang-bangers that have done time, went through background checks and filled out a 4473 to own that ‘gat’ or ‘9’ do you?   Stop thinking like a good serf and start thinking like the outlaws they are making us into and you will get MUCH further along. . It may cost a little more, but there won’t be a papertrail attached to it.  Ammo though, that may be a bit harder to find right now.  I know local, if its a common round, its scarce and seeing a box of 20 for $25-35 isn’t uncommon: if you can find it at all.

FOODS.   You don’t keep moving and mooing on an empty stomach, and you don’t get the option of thinking the JIT system will work when hotzones of conflict are all around.   People will get hungry enough to start eating on each other, and don’t think it doesn’t happen.   It’s Taboo because its NOT healthy, BUT when you are starved and the kids are crying, or worse, stopped crying because they are in shock from hunger: that deader next-door won’t notice a slab missing from his thigh, and when you cook it up all minced up like hamburger, the kids will never know and you see no reason to tell them.  Tell me it won’t happen, prove me wrong.   I KNOW it will. 

Getting started stocking up on food is easy right now, but that may not stay that way for long.   A couple extra bucks each time you stop at the groceries will build a canned food larder FAST.  Toss an extra $10 worth of dried beans or rice or pasta or all of the above, each weekly trip.   Canned meats may be strange to the ‘gourmet palette’, but when you are trying to squeeze a 1000 calorie meal through three days of hard duty, a slab of Spam on a bed of rice is like Filet Mignon to your tummy.  

When things go sideways, you are not going to be worrying about that extra 20# you sport now, Its gonna melt off fast.   In two weeks, you will be wishing that you still had it because your energy levels are gonna drop off as you burn off that reserve.

Food Prep:   Start figuring out how to make cold food.  Heating food send out all kinds of good smells, and when people start getting hungry, even the smell of boiling rice is going to travel and smell like a Smorgasbord at The SunKIngs tables to someone that hasn’t eaten in a week.   If you can find a way to prepare food in an enclosed space, all the better.   The LRP Rangers of Nam would cook up all their food before movement, then carry it with.    No fires or smells to betray their location.  Think High energy long shelve life.  Rice is good for both.  and on that note, High energy, long shelf life is what you want to consider for all your ‘reserve’ purchses.

OP-SEC.  Operational Security for you newbs.   Heres the rub.   You do NOT want to tell anyone what you are doing.   Clandestine is best advice at this point.  Don’t even say a thing to the kids or spouse, just say, “Oh, it was on sale,,,” or some BS.  If you start saying ‘I’m preparing for,,,,’ you may key some paranoid reaction from them, and now THEY may slip and tell a neighbor or another kid and now your ‘reserves’ are a known commodity.  If its just “normal Dad/Mom being cheap”, its a nothing burger and they won’t say anything.   If the entire neighborhood has a clue you have a months worth of food when the trucks aren’t running, you become a target, and EVERYBODY starves.   Keep your danged mouth shut.

Bugging out!  All I can say at this point is DON’T.  If you DON’T have a plan already laid out, DON’T. If you don’t have a group to bug-out with: DON’T.  If you stay put, stay hid, and stay ALIVE, you are ten times better off than the family that freaked out and ran without a plan in advance.   If you are in a place that you think is about to go all Rwanda in the next couple of months, NOW is when you need to bug-out, NOT when it goes all Rwanda.  People bugging out are what we call REFUGEES and Refugees always get the short end of the stick (sometimes quite literally) when things get scarce.   Don’t look at what the Border Jumpers in our country are getting, that won’t apply when resources are few and far apart.    And those that are Holding in Place, will treat you like a parasite wanting to leech them dry: best case, they will tell you to keep moving.  Worst case, They kill you and take all your shit that you carry.   Keep it in mind.   DON’T unless you have no choice and then be prepared to be the absolute lowest pawn on the board.

The list of threes: Three minutes without air, Three days without water, three weeks without food =DEAD MEAT.   Assuming they aren’t filling the air with Nerve or Blister agents, we won’t worry too much about that first one.  The second though,,,,   Water is LIFE.   let me rephrase that; CLEAN water is LIFE.   There are products out there that you can grab up RIGHT NOW that will make clean water a whole shit ton easier to get.   Keeping a bottle of bleach around won’t hurt you either as long as you understand HOW to use it, and if you don’t, DON’T.  (I had chlorine poisoning while in Kuwait and that shit SUCKS, trust me,,,,)

And we already talked about the food thing some.  BUT, calories, you may not need 1000 calories a day if you are ‘bugging-in’.   In fact, the less you eat the less you defecate and defecation make ‘smells’ that can attract others.  If you are bugging in, you want to stay hidden.   Limit your ‘signals’: Odor, noise, light, movement.  and remove the attraction: make your place look ‘already looted’.  

As for Guns.   Already mentioned that there are “Ways” and one possible avenue to investigate.  BUT lets discuss “Weapons”.  and I have already made this point in several posts here.  Guns are tools, YOU are the weapon.  When shit goes sideways, if you don’t think you could shoot someone, you likely won’t, but trust me on this, THEY WILL.   Get it in your head now, and become the WEAPON or you are already dead and just armed and fueled someone who may not be “good”.   If you just can’t get it around in your head that you will get to a point where its kill or be killed, you are already writing yourself an obit and I wish you God speed.   Even more, please don’t go buying a bunch of ‘tools’ and freedom seeds to just give them to the next guy that I may have to deal with.   Instead, use those funds to get you and yours OUT of that place where you are and into a place where you are less likely to see the other side of Humanity.  (and when you find that place, Let me know where it is,,,,) 

I apologize for this little essay being all over the place, there is just so much information that needs passed along and so little of it can be rapidly absorbed.   When we were trained as Combat Marines,(Yes BC, I am a former Misguided Child, don’t hate me,,,,) we went through 11 weeks of training, (it was bumped up to 13 after I graduated) and that was just to get us the BASICS, further training was months and months of training after that.   And NONE of it prepped us completely when we went into a two way shooting gallery.  It helped, certainly, but I don’t think there is any real way to prepare a person for when things go hot.  I can tell you this though.  The people around you will show you something completely different when things suddenly flip.   Your best friend may become your worst enemy, or worse, dead weight as a catatonic shell-shocked mushroom.  Then again, that timid Geek neighbor you all laugh about, may turn into a real asset of stealth and cunning and scrounger.   When the world flips, people change, and that is what you can expect.