Derelinquat me gehennam solus



I have written about the area I reside in, and how it has never truly recovered from the great depression.  I can think of nowhere that truly shows such as the people that are no longer. The dates on headstones declare what a hard life many in this area endured. Some of them, so sadly, are single dates: born and died at birth. This is just a reflection of how poor this area was, and in many ways, still is; and becoming once again. 
The hospital in town, has no doctor on staff.  They ‘borrow ‘ one from up the highway once a week.  This is actually a new problem from over the last 4-5 years. 
I don’t need to elaborate a cause amongst my readers , do I?
I leave above as a reflection for y’all.  I have enough to keep me melancholy for weeks. 
Take care all.

Insanity, by definition

Look around you, take a good long look.
If you are like me, you see stands of red oak, white oak, maple, sour wood, and poplar.  Maybe an ocasional squirrel or rabbit or turkey (the deer are in the fields this time of year)all dependent on whether dogs are asleep or not.
Then look at the news or independent agreggregator like Drudge.  The comparisons are world’s apart. (And as it should be. Everyone needs a chance to get away from the asylum now and again.)
I am watching a world that is vaguely familiar, ripping itself to shreds, over ideas that make not one ounce of sense when observed through the lense of reason. Of course, when you have no foundation for reason, you haven’t any sense of proportion and therefore, no sense.
One thing going round is the whole “self-identified” malarkey.    Seriously? You are either a pointer or a setter; what’s in your  head is superseded by what’s between your legs. (IE:your imagination is always trumped by the physical world) If you don’t agree with what nature gave you, that’s your issue, not mine nor everyone else’s. Dunno what the problem is here other than the fact that most people are just not satisfied unless they are making everyone else miserable. (They must all be democraps, it’s the only variable that makes the equation balance)(note:balance but still not make sense)
Another point going around (again!)is gun control. Here’s my take on it


There are only obsolete tactics.  What I bring with me to the party is only a tool towards an end. I am what makes the world dangerous to my enemies. Ban whatever you want kids, I will still be functional and just as dangerous tomorrow.    (Maybe more so, depending on how desperate y’all make me)
Insanity.  The world is full of it, and the insane seem to feel the need to fuck with the rest of us.  Yeah, keep it up, I am going back out on the porch and watch the Robins chase bugs.

Greyman vs self reliance(delayed post )

We had a hella storm blow up tonight, straight line winds, massive rain, I even saw my wind genny furl for the first time.  Knocked out power all over the area.
It got me to thinkin’ ’bout this whole off-grid thing from a tactical stand point.  Luckily, most of my neighbors are relation. There are one or two that are not, but we are on good terms with them, even if we don’t interact much.  But what if (you do play the ‘what if ” game, don’t you?) I didn’t live amongst friends?  How would I approach this situation, or, more specifically, retain a certain amount of security?  One night likely wouldn’t strain relations amongst neighbors, but a situation like I was in in Cincinnati back in 2008, where power was out for a week or more, well, I could see some people developing a certain amount of jealousy or envy, and that could  lead to more of the seven deadly sins.
Let’s imagine that one is completely off grid, raising a decent garden, minimal livestock to provide food as well as breeders, and has ZERO need of most day to day that the rest of us take for granted. Imagine that person in a situation where the infrastructure has failed and what others nearby could react like.  How do you establish security then?
My only thought starts with, you had better start that security  premise long before you need it.  Don’t advertise your preparations, be aware of power outages and practice light discipline, muffle the hell out your generators (that sound carries like you wouldn’t believe, even the quietest Honda genny is loud when ‘normal’ background noises are removed) etc etc etc.  

Just some thoughts on things.

A little EDU thingy and thinking ‘but preps

Just to keep things different and to not bring up the whole political situation in this selection cycle, I decided to share some of the things that have been going on and strengths and weaknesses that I have found.   Some of this is just stuff that works (or doesn’t, depending) for me, YMMV.

Ticks.   God’s meanest little parasite that is still visible to the naked eye.   Hate ’em.  And where I am at, they are a year round menace.   One thing I have noted lately, is that I react badly to them, more specifically, my BODY reacts badly to them, in ways I don’t ever remember happening as a kid.   I don’t know if its me developing an allergy to them, or if they are carrying some new bacteria or what, but every time I have been bitten by one in the last couple of years, I get this reaction.
It starts out as a weal in the skin.  Then the itching starts, and after a day or two, I have what looks like a spider bite.   The itching is unholy at this stage.   I tried topical antihistamines, the pink stuff, powdered aspirin salve, etc etc etc.   Finally, I tried something completely different.   I took a bandaid, put a couple drops of Tea Tree Oil on the gauze, then placed that over the bite mark.   Within minutes, the itching was gone.   The next day the weal was gone and there was only a spot of redness where the site was.   There was some discoloration in the gauze so I know whatever was there that my body reacted to, was drawn out by the oil.  And the TTO is an antibacterial/anti-fungal agent.  
It can be found at walmart but it isn’t cheap.  I paid almost $6 for only 2oz, but that should last a long time as I only use it a drop or two at a time.   It also has an odor that some find offensive (my opinion is it is pretty strong, but not bad).   You may want to try a drop on a sensitive area first to make sure you won’t have any adverse reactions to it.  I have been using it for a couple of years now for various things, and know it doesn’t bother me. 
Run search engine for other possible uses of it, such as bug repellant and such.   Good stuff to have on hand in a kit.

OK, next item.   This one is a strength/weakness and you will understand that better after you read this.   Was helping my mom and sister out and putting mom’s excess stuff in a storage unit.  In the process, ripped open a gash nearly 2” long across my forearm.   No muscle damage, but it did expose muscle.   I had my BOB with me, and there is a pretty well laid out First Aid kit in there; one that can even do sutures.  PROBLEM.   I can’t do sutures one handed and the location of the cut was such that I would have been forced to.   My sister does not know how to do sutures and I wasn’t comfortable with trying to talk her through it (no local in my bag and that needle stings like hell passing through skin without some type of local.  I don’t think she would have taken my wincing well is what I am trying to say)  So, I had her help me butterfly it closed (took all that I had, time to restock!) and I just bandaged it up and kept going.   Luckily, it was a very clean cut (looked like a knife cut, but was done by the edge of a piece of formica.) and by the time I was home and could do a better job on it, it was showing signs of closure already (8 hours later).    Due to the fact that it was still open, I did the sugar treatment on it over the weekend and just kept it bandaged loosely and a steristrip or two to hold it as closed as possible.
15 days later, its almost completely healed and no signs of infection were ever present.


Strength: being able to take care of a serious wound on the fly with flexibility of treatment.
Weakness: Not having another person with similar skills on hand.
So, this past week, I have been practicing a running suture with one hand.   I have some #5 braided suture that is big enough to play with and I use a surgical towel folded up in a fan shape to simulate the skin.   Its large enough to get the technique down and keep from punching holes in yourself while learning. 
I am still weak with anything technical with my left hand, but now, if I cut my left arm again, I can sew it up.   Not having that skill was another weakness in my preps.   I continue trying that left hand stuff though.

I guess what all of this is, besides giving you real life experiences, and not just some theoretical stuff jotted down as notes, is that there are places in all of our preps where we have weaknesses.   Not just in the physical, but in training as well.   I hadn’t thought to practice something like a one handed suture because I never thought I would have to suture ME.   In hind sight, with the way I live, chances are, I am the one that will have to do such, and this little situation showed me that.  

Ok, enough about me, here’s where I send you off for info if you haven’t already gathered it.   
Ditch medicine by Hugh Coffee.  May be a little over the top for some, but excellent information for preppers.    This is where I learned about the sugar treatment for large open wounds.   Get a dead tree edition for your library.  
There are also several books of related information out there, but I have not had chance to read that many of them let alone purchase them all.   If you look on Amazon, the genre will pull up oodles of such.   Read the commentary on them and make up your own mind.
SUTURES:  you can buy these on Amazon*, and the manufacturer states plainly that they are labeled for Vet use only even though they are manufactured in the same plant as the ones for human use.  Dunno ’bout you, but that’s good enough for me.   The sterility functions are identical and legal disclaimers mean little to me.   If you get them for emergency use, 3-0 or smaller 4-0 and 5-0 are what you will need.   If you have never done a suture, it isn’t like sewing a patch in your jeans so look at the practice suture pads and there are even practice KITS you can get.  There is some other gear you will need as well, but the biggest part of it is KNOWLEDGE, learn what you can now while we can still access the knowledge of others.
Lastly: Try to find the time to practice what you know.  Make a game of it if you will.   Try to start a fire after it rains.  Suture up a banana peel, just to see if you can.  Little things.   You have to make time to do things, but if you ‘learn’ something only by reading it, you miss 90% of the skill.  You may even find that you know something, only to find its beyond you because you didn’t practice something odd: like me not able to sew up my arm.   (or practice shooting with your off hand because you may not be able to use your primary hand for whatever reason.   Just an example.)  It all will boil down to you eventually, are your prepared?  (and for those that crap on us preppers, I always ask if they have a fire extinguisher at home.  Yes, then they are a prepper too.  No, then they are just FOOLS.)

*  I am tired of watching what I purchase online.   There is so much that I have to buy that I can’t find local, I have to use the nets.   The way I see it, they already have me on several lists, why worry.  If they are going to come for me, they are going to come for no matter what I have purchased or not purchased.   Fuck it, I can’t live like a prisoner, even if I am incarcerated in the FUSA.

As the world churns.

Just sittin back n watchin, frosty froggie spankin spunkin pukin shiite that is being passed off as Democracy ain’t but you couldn’t pound that through some of the blue blood heads even if you were to use a 2×4 fired out of a cannon.
HRC is supposedly lining up an all broad cabinet, (talk about froggy, the Witch has serious intent, acting as she has already “won”)(fact is, as this selection cycle progresses, she may already have. All the shenanigans we have seen show just how stacked that deck is.  “It’s a big club, and we ain’t in it!” )
Trump is stacking things as well and God only knows just how frosty it’s going to be at the RNC in Cleveland this year.  Have a sis up there and can only hope she can steer clear of any human nature that exposes itself.
But, I keep at it. Run in virtual broke-ness week to week, stocking on expendibles like suture kits, 22cal, long storage food, and still work on getting the stead in line.   Started laying out the foundation of the shop this weekend, seeing how I recently acquired over 5 ton of cinder block. It just needs old mortar cleaned off.  (Demo job, not from a house fire or anything)  Going to set things up similar to the house, running block anything round the perimeter, but then will fill entire area with concrete.  (Figure to fill most of it with rock, gravel and scrap to bring things level -4″ from top of block.  )   then I can really get busies!
Oh yeah, picked up a 12v ceiling fan on amazon for $115.  Install went well and the little thing just rocks.  Makes climate control in mi cabina a breeze (pun intended )  was cool enough early this weekend for a fire and I certainly didn’t use the usual amount, a lot less, and there were zero cold spots in the house (another reason I chose a vaulted ceiling and terminated walls instead of floor to ceiling walls) The little thing only pulls 20w at its highest and I can run it all night with seemingly zero draw.  Well worth it seeing how I do not have any capacity for an AC unit. This may not cool the house, but air movement is critical once the humidity/temperatures start hitting summer highs. And in this fishbowl,  that level reaches putrid fast.

Any who’s,  kick back with friends, have a beer and continue watching the lemmings rush headlong off the cliff of oblivion into the sea of facist, communist hell.  (Sadly, they somehow manage to drag us with them, but at least we can see hell for what it is. )

Viewing if a Cannibal festival

I just love this time of season, flowers busting out of the ground, trees buddin’ out, and around here, there is an entire festival dedicated to one tree, the Redbud, and for good reason.  The hills around here are alive in the color of Redbud.(which is closer to purple in my opinion, but hey, red it is for the record.)
But that is not all, there is the entire mess with the pResidential selection cycle going on, and I find it funny that for once, you can really see the workings of the machine, and how broken it really is. CONvention delegates stating openly that the will of the people is meaningless and THEY decide who moves forward.  The current sitting pResident is starting to unleash the dogs of the FBI and AG on one of those LeadersPRetend asspiring toward that lofty office of puppet for the puppet masters behind the scenes.  The outlier runners are kicking ass on both sides of the aisle and the incumbent wannabe’s are getting their panties in a wad over it: Passing rules to keep the front runners out of the conventions, trying to get the media to smear them with whatever shit they can dredge up, even if the media has to LIE about it and spin it so fast that you can’t hear anything but the whine of bearings galling up.
Heck, I even read that Sharpton had a little insight into what our future holds and is warning about it.  (and I bet his teams of organizers are trying to figure out how he can stir the shit up AND make a profit at it.) 
In addition, there have been more than a few posts along anti-social media from the leftie useful idiots about retributions.   And it doesn’t seem to matter if Trump wins or loses, they are calling for reparations from those that are pushing for the Donald.  Something along the Baathist purge that took place in Iraq after Saddam Hussein was ousted.  Pretty ugly shit all around.
News for ya, we are already in the beginnings of American Revolutionary War III.  It doesn’t matter who wins, or who goes to jail for being a snake from the get go, or even if said snake walks slithers away scotfree.
The one thing you aren’t really hearing is what the conservative side is doing, thinking, saying, planning for.   Of course not.  We don’t believe half of the shit that the left spews forth like a drunk projectile vomiting his peanuts.   They talk a lot of shit, and may even shit all over the first amendment because they can’t handle hearing the truth. (I firmly believe they KNOW the truth, and are just so fuckin’ spoiled rotten, they throw these little tantrums to ‘get their way’)   Nope, the conservative side, that aren’t cuckservatives, know what comes next, and while we are aware of it, we are hoping we are wrong, hoping, but not really leaning on that hope.   Don’t know about any of you, but I have found myself getting out the ammo box, making sure things are in order there, getting gear reset, and even taking longer and longer walks in the hills with Voo.   Not just trail walking either but getting between the lines of drift and following deer trails.  (the deer around here seem confuzzed, they act like friggin’ Dahl Sheep and want to climb cliff faces.  Makes for some interesting ‘walkies’ to say least.)
Here is what I think, and I figure if you are reading this, you probably are too.  This shit is going to hit the fan come the second week of November.   After the selection cycle is fully over and decided, things will get hairy.  If Hildebeast wins (not just the nomination, but the cycle) certain inner cities are going to start burning.  If Bernie wins it, other inner cities will start burning.  If Trump gets the nom, and wins, all the inner cities will start burning.  If Cruz gets the nom and wins it.  The east coast will start burning.  If a compromise is reached, and Trump/Cruz run as Prez/VP, things will probably get hairy, but the real clincher will be that somewhere between November and January, there will likely be a Kennedy option played out and Cruz will get to be the head honcho.
Note I have not mentioned any of the other parties running this race.  At this stage, they are meaningless, because there is so much attention being placed on the whole Trump/Cruz fight and the HRC/Bernie fight.
If you can’t smell the sewage backing up, I envy you.
If you can’t see the broken gears showing through the shattered gearbox, you need to start paying more attention.  This run-up is really showing that our country is not as intended.  We are NOT a representative Republic.  We are NOT a Democracy.   What we are is a Socialist country ran by a Corporate Oligarchy and the only voices that are going to be heard are those of the leech class bought and paid for by the rest of the taxpayers.  .

And that will start the Cannibal Festival in 2017.  It has already begun, but thats when the teeth will be fully exposed, and the blood will run freely.   Fully expect our current Manchurian Candidate to step up the pace on removing any last vestige of our ‘freedoms’ between the day of voting and the inauguration of the loser.  (loser because they get to keep the powder keg being handed to them.)
I’ll tell you this; I don’t even try to educate people near me anymore.   No one wants to hear about it.  They only want their teevees, pop shows and owl-kee-haul. ‘Turn the toons up louder, dude, Ah’m startin’ to hear my thoughts!    And give me some more of that ‘Shine, Ah’m starting to feel my lips again.”
Fuggem!  When shit starts to fall apart, the trucks aren’t deliverin’, and we start seeing Pohlice in full military garb on daily basis, they will shit themselves and I will be sitting on my hill laughing.(assuming of course that they haven’t come for me by then)

Keep watchin’, this is likely going to be the last gasp of the Great Experiment.

Time for something new and not just a new boss, same as the old boss.

More on that next post.

Touching base

I am still working on that dialogue between Diogenes and Lucretius, just so you know: I have to say, the entire work is really taking it out of me and there are times were I have to question my own sanity,   Those are the times where I just save the whole shebang, sit back for a couple of days and then go back and re-read it as if I were just looking at it for the first time.   Part of the reason for that question in sanity is the fact that I am playing both roles in my head, and while I am solid in the one personality, the other is a bit more of a reach for me these days.   Imagine if you will, stepping back in time and having a heart to heart with yourself thirty years ago.     We all have stated “If I knew then what I know now,,,,,” and that is pretty much what I am trying to accomplish with this, without the actual going back in time part.  Playing the apostate while hammering logic can get near schizophrenic at times.   I am just channeling my teenage, early twenty something self and finding that what I knew then was fairly complete indoctrination.  (and I thought I had a pretty decent school, that avoided that kind of shit.  Wrong!)
Anywhoos, on with the Diogenes show.  
Been watching a lot of stuff on the webs, some of it is encouraging.   I see people, many people, waking up to the facts that many of us already know, and have had the hardest time getting others ears for.   Like ‘THE MEDIA LIES!’   for one.  Second: Voting is how they keep us on the plantation: we may be able to vote in a new master every four years, but who is really choosing who we get to choose FROM.   As noted on the Drudge a week or two ago, one of the Delegates flat stated, “the people don’t choose the candidates, We do!”  And if you don’t get to separate the chafe from the wheat, guess who gets the chafe in their bowl in the morning?  YOU.  Just one more piece of evidence for the masses, that we do NOT have a representative Republic, but an frickin oligarchy.  And like Stalin said, it only matters in WHO counts the votes, not who you voted for.

Let me fill you in on some of my doings.   I have been playing around with what started out as a whim, and has quickly turned into a “what if,,,,” thought line.   Here is the first half of the story.


That is a replica of an 1858 Remington Percussion Revolver.   Obviously a black powder weapon, but it was deadly back then, and can be so now as well.   It has the advantage over the Colt Army/Navy designs of being able to swap cylinders without complete disassembly. (on the Colts, you have to pull the barrel off to pull the cylinder.)  I bought this because I have always been interested in hunting deer with a pistol, but most states have this odd rule about needing a barrel longer than 7 inches.   (the barrel on the Rem is 7 1/2” as measured outside of the receiver, actual length is 8 1/2”)  I chose this model because I wanted to be able to load hot and that top strap allows you to get a tad aggressive with the loads.   Current load is 30 grains of Triple7 under a 200grain Semi-Wadcutter.  I have not measured the speed of this (yet) but I can tell the thing is going to kick some serious ass.   I also shoot 40 grains/.454 round ball/wad and that is just flat devastating on a rabbit.  (found a seriously sick rabbit on the trail and all I had was the pistol.  Least to say, I burned it in two pieces.  The poor thing looked like it had swallowed a bottle of nitroglycerine and got it stuck in its throat. Yes, burned it, because the problem it had was a tick infestation that drained it.  The poor thing was dead already even though it was still breathing (barely))
Looking at the above numbers, one would think shooting a heavier bullet, one would want more powder pushing it.  I thought so at first, but looking at the amount of contact of lands and grooves the SWC has in comparison to the ball, less is actually better.  There is a noticeable recoil difference between the two and the SWC is much more powerful  (it also compresses the powder better so there is a better burn with a decrease in the amount of smoke.)
So, where does this leave us?  I want to use it this year for deer hunting, but it also got me to thinking about BP in preps.   Believe me, I like my cartridge guns, especially for those longer shots, and I still take more than a little pride in being able to STILL accurately shoot 500+ yards with iron sights.  Not driving tacks at that distance, but I am turning pie plates into colanders.   I don’t believe I could get that kind of performance out of a BP gun (and I am more than willing to be taught otherwise if anyone can do so)  But there are aspects of BP that make it seem quite fitting for a prepper to consider.
1. Variable charges without having to bust out oodles of gear to change ONE shot.
2. Lead is much easier to cast than composite bullets of lead/copper/mild steel.
3. Black powder can be made with minimal issues, and materials tend to be fairly common and naturally occurring. (minimal in the sense of modern smokeless powders and the need of serious acids to reproduce them)
4. Black Powder can be used in several different methods, not just for loading a firearm.
5. Even the caps in percussion pieces can be reproduced if need be, though you may find it much easier to stock a couple hundred thousand caps than it is to stock a thousand rounds of anything other than .22LR
6. Black powder is not limited to single shot rifles as is so easily forgotten about by so many. (more on this in a minute)
7. For those with Federal restrictions, this may be a viable alternative.  Do NOT take my word on this, do your own research and cross check with your state laws.  Example, here in KY, it is legal for a Felon to own BP guns, but they can be busted for having a loaded firearm if they have a cap on the nipple during transportation.  (ain’t laws fun, trying to figure out where they hide the trapdoors to bust you.)
So, with minimal fuss, an extremely limited budget, and no need to go through an FFL or even walk into a brick and  mortar, I have added a fine piece to my collection, and loaded up with nearly a thousand bullets, several pounds of powder, and am working on getting those caps up to the same level as bullets.   Using the Triple7, clean up is a breeze (hot soapy water) and I have the ability to hot swap cylinders nearly as fast as dropping a mag out of a 1911.   (Granted, I still need to purchase a couple extra cylinders, but that is coming.) (For an example of how easily the cylinders change out, watch the final shoot out in the movie Pale Rider and you can see Eastwood swapping cylinders in detail.   Sadly, the pistols he used in that scene were modified for cartridges, but Remington did that around 1873 or so.  Of course, that means that the cylinders could be reloaded even faster between shooting rounds.)

I am also not limited to just a pistol.


Pretty sweet huh? (my next purchase and I drool over this picture at least once a week.)
18” barrel,  .44cal six shooter, and if you purchase the pistol from the same manufacturer, the cylinders are completely interchangeable.   Imagine this and a pistol, four extra cylinders (two in the guns) and you now have 36 rounds ready to unload in haste.  No, it ain’t an AR or AK, but this is not intended as a battle rifle.   You may find you need that kind of firepower though depending on your situation (like taking out a pack of ‘Yotes, or that mamma black bear that thinks you want to hurt her babies.)
Both guns, the extra cylinders, powder, lead, dual bullet molds, caps, wads and a learning curve for under $1000.    And no need to have a permission slip from the principle to purchase them, nor need to even ASK.  Other than your credit card slip and shipping transactions, NO PAPER TRAIL, for those of you that find such important.  Heck, they deliver to your house; how cool is that?!?!
No, it ain’t a squirrel gun, but I can tell you, I can take a squirrel with it but shooting the branch underneath him. (Supposedly Boone used this method and called it “barking” squirrels)   I could probably do similar by shooting underneath a rabbit.   I could also load it with a shot wad and use it like a shotgun in close quarters (the equivalent of a .410) though the rifling would probably make anything past 20’ impractical.  (No, I haven’t tried it, but I have seen shotshells for other  pistol combinations and I know they are good for killing snakes and birds.  I could see such for small game in other cases.)
So, if’n you think long term, like I do, and more than just the next battle with Goons and JBT’s, you may want to consider this little combination, or even just one side of such. The investment is minimal in comparison to modern rifles and bullets and magazines, and while I wouldn’t want to get caught in a firefight with this setup, I know I could use it in a pinch if need be.  (part of the reason it would be a no go in a firefight, every time you pull the trigger you send up smoke signals pointing out your exact location.)

(Funny thing is, while doing my research on the pistol, I recall reading some comments on the nets about people just not thinking these things were efficient enough to take game.   My thought at that point was, ‘Hell son, they used to kill each other with these all the time, and taking game was pretty much a daily thing back then.  How is the design less efficient NOW compared to then, when we have better powders available to us, more stringent manufacturing methods of bullets, barrels, etc? “  I can tell you this much, after seeing how much of that rabbit was left, and the hole in the ground behind him (damp earth, the hole was about 9” deep before I found the ball.) I can tell you, with proper shot placement (important no matter what you are shooting) this pistol WILL drop a deer in its tracks.  I would not be surprised to see it take a black bear, or Boar Hog either.   I am looking for a bullet mold to make hollow point bullets, but so far, no luck on that note (yes I found some, just not in my caliber.))


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