Struggle anew

We evolve, not just physically over time, be it five minutes of working out, or millinenia as a species.

But our minds evolve at the speed of thought.  Never being the same from one minute to the next.  Being ourselves, it can be hard to see that change as we are a part of it,,,  Like flowing water,,, our thoughts may take the shape of the container, but that container is redefined by the things we experiance.

I’m struggling to find what to write about right now as my recent dive down rabbit holes, (which is on-going,,,,) illuminated just how fucked up this ‘human’ world truly is, all because there is one underlying aspect to humans that can NOT be unwritten.  SURVIVE!PROPAGATE!  Two hardwired traits that can’t be unwritten no matter how hard the lefties want us to be robotic widgets  fit into small caliber niches.   We want to survive and reproduce,,,

(And any species that loses either trait is on a dead end road of the evolutionary map.  I believe Heinlein covered this a time or two.)

Talking about how ‘fucked up’ this human world is, I am watching the further adventures of a particular region and thinking how certain parties have had their dicks in pretty much every escalation for 2000+ years,,, and wonder why other tribes dislike them so.   Me personally had no beef with them at all, until I started seeing the muck-a-fun that was started by them way backawhen.   

And here we are wondering when Samson is gonna pull the pillars down around his ears,,,,,

Yes, I am using weasel words to get my point across, I think y’all know ‘whom’ I speak of,,,  

Can’t say I have much love of the Vatican powers either,,,,     They are all neck deep in prospiracy and power-mongering.  

But I want to get away from all of that here at the blog.   And I have nothing else occupying my brainium: besides the day to day rat-race of living in a dying economy as an enemy of the state.   Oh, and the usual kayaking/Camping stuff,,, thats escapism/sanity,,,,  Can’t lose that or you might read about me doing something horrid to some poly-tickian types,,,,  

I’ll leave that right there with the 200+ words I wrote vaporized into the aether, instead of incriminating meself,,,,,

Seriously though,,I am in an odd state of mind.   I care, REALLY care,,, but at the same time, have absolutely ZERO FUCKS to give about it anymore.   I care that the world is falling apart, but couldn’t give a rats ass about the Bad Actors perpetrating that fail.  

I could put a bullet in their grape, point blank, and sleep like a baby afterwards.   I have no idea what sort of Karma that would pull down on me, but I would feel vindicated and righteous,

“When asked how he felt about murdering  so many,,, The accused stated ” I didn’t murder any humans, I only killed communists.”

I totally get his POV now.  Not that I am planning on going that route, but I get it,,, I get it.

Self-centered? 

I think “AWAKE” is a better term.   They can’t lie anymore.   The lies have been seen, and the only option they have is to double down on them.   Same as all compulsive liars do,,, until the lie is so knotted up and raveled, that the original reason to lie is forgotten, but the lies must be kept up,,,

Maybe I just need to set the keyboard aside awhile, let the rabbit hole fester a bit, until such time as I have accepted it as part of my mental evolution and can incorporate everything under the totatality of ME,,,   I know for a fact now that what I found was coming at me no matter if it were this past week, or two years down the road.  Some of that information had passed under my nose before, but hadn’t been put together with other parts.  

I had some evidence, but no thought that there was a crime involved. 

And its only Twosday,,,,  sigh,,, long week ahead before the paddle therapy can begin,,,,

keep on livin’