Not krazee, just feelin’ a bit ‘off’

as in PUT OFF,,, you don’t have to follow along with my journey, but if you do, you are going to hit where I am at currently.  I don’t even care if you agree or not.  I am not putting any of this out here for you, not you in particular; this is completely for my own record.  If you take something from it: Excellent.  if not, I hope you find your calling/muse/purpose/fascination in your own way.   Its a heavy burden ‘waking up’, and not just to the lies of our current times, but waking up to what I feel are facts (call it faith that they are, if  you wish)

That everything we were ever taught is  based on fabrications for benefit to a select few, and the preponderous nature of that fabrication is causing greater and greater echos of SUFFERING as the years go by.

I used to Joke about “Illuminati”,,,  Now, not so sure.   I used to say that the Knights Templar were better bankers than warriors,  now, I am thinking they found out something and the Holy Roman See was paying them hushmoney. I re-read sections of history concerning the Inquisition, and the targeted groups for Heresy, what those groups believed and practiced, and wonder “Why?”: but I think I know why.  The lessons I have been gleaning certainly paint a different picture of that past.   One not so pretty, not that those times were pretty or anything.

And how much information was flat destroyed? How much is under lock and key under the Vatican? Safe from prying eyes like mine (and many many others,,,)How many there KNOW they are perpetuating a fabrication, and how many are just Duped?

I know it matters not.  I know it, but that does not give me comfort.   I see why history repeats itself, over and over, never quite in tune, but always repeating the same cycles.

There are mysteries that aren’t explainable by science.   Not as yet anyways.  I think there is a time coming where even those will have explaination, and when they do, MAGIC will be reborn, only it won’t be magic, it will be Science. 

I told you, I am feeling ‘Off’,,, might even sound a bit kray-kray,,,   My brain does not settle down, and follows threads all over the place.  

My thoughts on “magic” are in part from stories of the Buddhist monks and ‘miracles’ and some quite paranormal accounts.  Maybe they can do those things: I can’t say, never seen them done, only seen one Buddhist in my entire life and that was the current Dalai Lama when he came to Cincinasty for something.   I was part of the production team for the venue, providing Public address and lighting for all the speakers.   I certainly did not see anything paranormal take place. 

I can say he was a powerful person, and instilled calm about him wherever he walked, but that could be many things, not ‘some superpower’,,,   I have met others that did the same at some level.  I have been to places that had the same effect.   Odd, but not paranormal, just peaceful.

It sucks to be so damned introspective,,, I look around, but I am always looking back at me at the same time.  Analyzing ME, to see if I ‘measure up’,,,,  

Sometimes I do, sometimes I don’t.   But I keep trying, keep learning, keep applying, and thats all I know TO DO.   I try to teach others some of what I have learned, usually the hardest way possible (I am stubborn and can make Mules look flat submissive.)  And I know the mantra; “you teach that which you most need to learn” 

we are all teachers

we are all students

we are all

HUMAN

Fallible, misguided, sinful in some way shape or form,,, None of us is an angel in waiting,,,, thats the aspiration, the goal,

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The world around us is in turmoil, politcal shifting like techtonic plates slamming into each other.  Sometimes both rise, creating incredible mountain ranges.  Usually one will be driven down while the other rolls over it and creates ongoing frictions for a time.   Sometimes, the two will just slide along each other, and occasionally, there will be a hangup that breaks loose causing issues off and on.  

But the world doesn’t end, the trip around the sun carries on, and this little rock in the outskirts of a Galactic arm doesn’t give a rats ass if I exist or not.   I DO, (care that is)  but I am a very brief spark in a fire that has been going on forever.   When the sun finally goes dark, there won’t be some footnote in the galactic forums mentioning me in particular.  Maybe this crazy ‘Human Race’ that was near schizophrenic and suicidal,

but not me.

And I am good with that.     It means I can live my life to my fullest, and even if I fail, no one will know except me. 

And I will have (have had) my failures.  Along with my successes; Six of one, half dozen the other,,, it all come back to the laws of conservation doesn’t it.  You can’t create or destroy energy, you can only transform it: and that is all we really are,,, energy compressed so tightly, we are solid(ish) 

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Happy Muhndae to y’all,,,, thanks for letting me vent,,, Maybe now I can get back to the original program of this here bloggy thingy,,, (no promises,  its a whimsical thing,,,,)

Keep on livin’