Thats been my issue of late. Been hovering over issues so far out of my control, that they start controlling me.
I think its fairly safe to say, that no matter whats approaching through the fall out of 2020’s shenanigans, they will be nearly glacial in speed reaching everyday people. Or as Hemingway put it “Slowly, then all at once” (refering to going bankrupt, but financial bankruptcy is a good analogy to societal bankruptcy) Watch a utoob vid of a glacier calving, and you see what I mean.
I spent 24 hours with friends New Years day into the second. Spent hours monkeying with kayaks, talking kayaks, white water skills, describing long boating and explaining the differences to one who has never paddled a long boat. 24 hours of ZERO World Crisis. One short point where I was asked about Christmas Booms and my opinion. But that was it. The rest was good food, good people, good (but not in excess 😉) drink, and KAYAKY STUFF!!!
I needed the break. Oh did I need that break.
Sadly, the river run we had scheduled canceled with an illness. One of the key people felt ill and backed out. And that started an avalanche of same. B and I (more me than B) decided to hold off for lack of support. Kayaking is inherently risky from word ‘go’ (kinda like flying,,, take offs are optional, landings are mandatory. ) and I know I am the weak link that will likely need someone to save my ass in fast moving water. I didn’t want to burden a single person to that reponsibility, among other reasons. 🥶 A larger group is one mitigant to that risk.
Rolling classes are opening back up soon: indoor pool, good instructors, and small class sizes. Let the PTwB play their games, none of us can stop the juggernaut they have created; I will do what I need to lessen my burden on others, doing one of the things I love. I still don’t ‘know’ that WW kayaking is my thing, but the skills needed to handle a wild river are very applicable to heavy seas, and I DO want to play in oceans, wide open lakes and such. Rivers can help me build my skills and they are a lot more plentiful here than open water.
A short vid of where we were supposed to ‘play’ Saturday.
Had to take a break from all the hoopla.
Took Serena out on Saturday for her one year birthday float. She is one year old this week.
Then I took out both of the plastiYaks; Betty and Jefe. Water isn’t flowing well enough to realy get them playing, but I was able to stretch some techniques and push my comfort levels. Jefe is strange to me. Initial stability is great, secondary is great and its there you hit a wall. Trying to get that boat over on its side is a fight unless you throw your upper body at. Then she’ll slip right over. Hip flicks are different to: I can feel that hump between secondary and over . Almost like a cam action going on. All of the other boats are smooth so the difference is noticable. Some are so smooth (Duh!kee, Betty) that they will bring you up and BACK over the other side if you get too energetic.
Honestly, I need to spend an hour or two in a kayak everyday, or minimal every other day. When I sat in Serena, I was twitchy and nervous¤. After playing for an hour, I settled down and was able to start pushing it a bit. Edging, stern draws, slicing into and out of eddy lines. Even went through some rougher water. Did some fast water ferrying, even went up stream and only had to portage once.
Then taking the plastiyaks out, not one issue. No twitchyness, no anxiety, other than the ‘dont really want to get wet’, but I was able to get in Jefe and just head out. No hanging in the shallows ‘adjusting’. Played for an hour or so, then went and grabbed Betty off the truck and same thing (recall, she is just as tippy as Duh!kee is and Duhk has tried to kill me: LOL.) No issues! I was even playing with getting her to dive while headed upstream in the narrows. She didn’t dive, but she did get her decks washed off. I think the water needs to be faster to get a dive,
But, I feel MUCH better than I did. My shoulder isn’t achy, my lower back is feeling supple again, and my anger is blunted for the time being. (And I am shopping for a 7mm wet suit; that water is COLD. I may just breakdown and go full drysuit, but I’m still choking on their price tags.)
Oh, and if anyone took offense at my last post. NOT SORRY. I’m sick n tired of tippy-toeing around peoples feelings, this year has whittled my tolerances to the nubs. If you were offended, ya might want to reflect on why. Use a mirror, it might help.
¤Water temps are sitting mid 40s right now. Will chill a body quick. I DO dress for the water but still have no desire to be in it. The gear is my insurance “just in case”.
Its 33°f outside right now. Fire in its place and the house is comfortably warm as a snoring dog and buzzy cat will attest.
And the beginnings of cabin fever are already kicking in.
Must be a symptom of an already f@ck€d up year. Its not even December and I’m itchin’ to do “sumpthin!”
Projects aside, and I could be working on any one of them, my body is wanting things more physical and demanding. I have a book to complete(yes Bruce, Its in process), i have another kayak to build (still need to get the log to the mill, but there are other aspects I could have fun with),,,
But. But. But.
Yeah, I HATE cold weather, shortened days, and having an accelerated metabolism. I mean, I’m 52, 6’2″ and still under 200#. My body despises ‘sitting still’ (and why I dont hunt or fish very often, unless I can stalk my quarrie.).
But Dio, you’re sittin’ still when you’re kayaking!
No, actually I am not. I may be in a seated position, but kayaking uses muscle groups from your head all the way down to your feet. Do a short run in WW and you’ll feel it tomorrow in places you’ve forgotten about. The first time I paddled 15 miles, I was sore for a week and not just in my shoulders and arms, but in my abs, hips and thighs: almost like I had been running.
Since I started kayaking, my waist line has been steadily shrinking and the love handles are melting off. My endurance is better and my back doesn’t ache like it used to.
And I still haven’t rolled successfully 🤬. Working on that, maybe I need water time with some chill to encourage getting upright, ,🥶 . I posted a short vid of my dryland practice and that is getting perfect, but its not IN water so,,, but my muscle memory is building, and I find myself getting upright with little to no effort now. I even noted in a hipflick practice that I came upright without realizing it when someone had asked me a question. (Small distraction syndrome/zen moment.) My biggest issue is just what I told another kayaker when we were out for the moonlight float: “my issue is in my head.” I need to follow Bruce’s advice and just go inverted and chat with the fish a few times, some wet exits, and just get used to being upside down. I know I can get out of all of my boats with ease, some better than others (Duh!k likes to trip me and snag shoes. And why I paddle her barefoot) so the exit is not my hang-up; my hangup is in being upside down underwater. Yeah, I gotta work on that.
But it’s stinking cold out, and I’m making oodles of excuses in my head, and creating a mixed bag of angst in my psyche. Fact is, NOW is the time when one really wants the rolling skill down pat; ‘Bombproof’ as the white water types like to call it.
Excuses are like A$$h♤les, every body has one and knows another.
Be the Bear!!! Maybe thats what I need. Kit up with cold water gear and just dive in, swim around a bit, THEN get in the kayak and do what I need. Only (legit) excuse I have there is ‘No partner’. Kinda don’t wanna risk things without a backup on hand. (I don’t enjoy soloing like I did. Funny being an introvert and lone wolf type wanting to ‘herd up’ 😝)
As another once told me: Everything you want or desire is on the othereside of HARD.
The more effort you exert, the easier things become until they seemingly happen without effort.
But if you don’t put forth that effort first, nothing will ever happen.
Saw a few leaves falling.
I know the fall equinox has already passed and we are on the freight train towards solstice, but the winter train is always so much slower than the summer train.
Its not so much the weather that gets me, its the dead and empty feeling the landscape takes on. I get the anxiety ridden feeling that was doled out so well in the opening scenes of “the Book of Eli”.
OK, maybe I exaggerate a touch; there are some rather enjoyable memories with this time of year to quell the anxiety, but the world “going to sleep” always fills me with melancholy. I know heading back north those changes will seem accelerated, and that, well,,,, Yeah, *sigh*,,,,
Back on the road and its gonna be a long-ass day. And back to the millstone tomorrow, ugh!
The following is something posted on Fakebook, but I find it hard to argue with many of its points. There is a rapidly growing dysfunction within this country and what many on one side of it seemingly fail to realize, is that the silent majority may be silent, but not without means. When the silent majority ‘wakes’, results HAPPEN, and there is no mercy nor let up until the situation is resolved.If the following ‘offends’ you, before you go off the hook, remember I did not write it, but I find truth in it. You may want to look in the mirror and ask if any of the traits condemned are a reflection of your own.************************************If you are a liberal who can’t stand Trump, and cannot possibly fathom why conservatives would ever vote for him let me finally fill you in. It’s not that we love Donald Trump so much. It’s that we can’t stand you. And we will do whatever it takes — even if that means electing a rude obnoxious unpredictable narcissist (your words not ours) to the office of President of the United States — because the only thing we find more dangerous to this nation than Donald Trump is you.How is that possible you might ask? Well, you have done everything in your power to destroy our country. From tearing down the police; to tearing down our history; to tearing down our borders. From systematically destroying our schools and brainwashing our kids into believing socialism is the answer to anything (despite being an unmitigated failure everywhere), while demonizing religion and faith, and glorifying abortion, violence, and thug culture. From calling us racists every time we expect everyone of any skin color to follow our laws equally, to telling us that our “tolerance” of lifestyles we don’t agree with isn’t nearly enough — no we must “celebrate” any lifestyle choice or gender option (forget science) you throw our direction or you think it’s fine to calls us homophobic or some other degrading slur you decide is okay to call us — ironically all while lecturing us on hate speech. While you gaslight us about 52 genders, polyamory, grown men in dresses sharing public locker rooms with little girls, and normalize the sexualization of young children, you simultaneously ridicule us for having the audacity to wish someone a “Merry Christmas” or hang a flag on the 4th of July, stand for the national anthem, or (horror of horrors) don a MAGA hat in public. So much for your “tolerance.” (See why we think you are just hypocrites??)We’re also not interested in the fact that you think you can unilaterally decide that 250 years of the right-to-bear-arms against a tyrannical or ineffective government should be abolished because you can’t get the violence in the cities you manage under control. That free-speech should be tossed out the window, and that those who disagree with your opinions are fair game for public harassment or doxing, That spoiled children with nose-rings and tats who still live off their parent’s dime should be allowed to destroy cities and peoples livelihoods without repercussions. That chaos, and lawlessness, and disrespect for authority should be the norm. This is your agenda. And you wonder why we find you more dangerous than Donald Trump?Your narrative is a constant drone of oppressor/oppressed race-baiting intended to divide the country in as many ways as you possibly can. You love to sell “victim-hood” to people of color every chance you get because it’s such an easy sell compared to actually teaching people to stand on their own two feet and take personal responsibility for their own lives and their own communities and their own futures. But you won’t do that, you will never do that because then you will lose control over people of color. They might actually, start thinking for themselves, God forbid!This is why we will vote for Donald Trump. Not because he is the most charming character on the block. Not because he is the most polite politician to have ever graced the oval office. Not because he is the most palatable choice, or because we love his moral character or because the man never lies, but because we are sick to death of you and all of the destructive crap you are doing to this once beautiful and relatively safe country. Your ineffective and completely dysfunctional liberal “leadership”(?) has literally destroyed our most beautiful cities, our public education system, and done its damnedest to rip faith out of people’s lives.However bad Donald Trump may be, and he is far from perfect, every day we look at you and feel that no matter what Donald Trump says or does there is no possible way he could be any worse for our country than you people are. We are sick to death of your destructive, ignorant, and intolerant behavior and beliefs — parading as “wokeness.” We are beyond sick of your hypocrisy and B.S. We are fed up with your disrespectful divisiveness and constant unrelenting harping and whining and complaining (while you live in the most privileged nation in the world) while making literally zero contributions of anything positive to our society. Your entire focus is on ripping things down, never ever building anything up. Think about that as there is something fundamentally very wrong in the psychology of people who choose destruction as their primary modus operandi.If Donald J Trump is reelected, don’t blame us, look in the mirror, and blame yourselves. Because you are the ones that are responsible for the rise of Donald Trump. You are the ones who have created this monster that you so despise, by your very actions. By your refusal to respect your fellow Americans and the things that are important to us. You have made fun of the “fly-over states,” the people who “cling to their guns and religion,” the middle-class factory workers and coal miners and underprivileged rural populations that you dismissively call “yahoos” and “deplorables.” You have mocked our faith and our religion. You have mocked our values and our patriotism. You have trampled our flag and insulted our veterans and treated our first responders with contempt and hatred. You have made environmentalism your religion while trashing every city you have taken responsibility for. You scream from the rooftops about “global warming” and a “green new deal” while allowing tens of thousands of homeless people to cover your streets in literal sh*t and garbage and needles and plastic waste without doing a single thing to help them or solve the environmental crisis your failed social policies are creating. But we’re supposed to put YOU in charge of the environment while gutting our entire economy to institute this plan when you can’t even clean up a single city??You complain — endlessly — yet have failed to solve a single social problem anywhere. In fact, all you have done is create more of them. We’ve had enough. We are tired of quietly sitting by and being the “silent” majority. So don’t be surprised when the day comes when we finally respond. And trust me it’s coming, sooner than you might think. And also trust me when I say it won’t be pretty. Get ready.If Donald Trump is reelected it will be because you and your “comrades” have chosen to trash the police, harass law-abiding citizens, and go on rampages destroying public property that we have all paid for and you have zero respect for. If Donald Trump is reelected it will be because we are sick of your complete and utter nonsense and destruction. How does it feel to know that half of this country finds you FAR more despicable than Donald J. Trump, the man you consider to be the anti-Christ? Let that sink in. We consider you to be more despicable, more dangerous, and more narcissistic than Donald Trump. Maybe allow yourself a few seconds of self-reflection to let that sink in. This election isn’t about Donald Trump vs. Joe Biden. This is about Donald Trump vs. YOU.So if on the morning of November 4 (or more likely December 29 by the time the Supreme Court will weigh in on the mail-in ballot fiasco we are headed towards) if Donald J. Trump is reelected? The only people you have to blame is the left-wing media drones and yourselves. You did this. Yep, you!
Lets start this ball rolling by reminding my readers of a fact about me. I’m an INTJ on the Myer Briggs personality indicator. One thing about INTJs is emotions, or seeming LACK of. We despise public emotiinal displays. We have them, feelings, emotions, and usually quite strongly, but choose to rein them in and keep our heads and wits about us. When another ‘vents’ emotionally in our presence, (and I speak from my own standpoint, other INTJs may have variations of this) its the psychic equivalent of someone puking all over us.
So lets kick off this little shindig and see if WordPress decides I’m unfit for their servers.
Race, breeds, species, etc.
Mere words, but words are the weapon of the left as documented by George Orwell so eloquently in 1984. Twist the meaning, enforce the new one through ‘social shaming’ and the sheep will enforce your edicts with no fight.
Break it down: I AM a racist! I think the human race is at the peak of current evolution on this planet. I like being a human, a thinker, tool user, mover of mountains and manipulator of atoms. I may not be those last two specifically, but the human RACE is. Now like all species/races, there are breeds within the basket. In Canines, you have wolves, coyotes, rottweilers, labradors and terriers, etc. Ask any dog breeder which can interbreed and they will say “all of ’em”.
Same applies to the Human race. Black, White, Brown, Yellow, Red: Doesn’t matter, we can interbreed. And given time, can create new breeds within the species.(and here we are 1000000+ years since Lucy passed on, with many many breeds running amok.)
So yeah, I’m racist. You are too unless you’re doing unspeakable acts to sheep or something. (We won’t take that thought any further though: Ick!!!)
See, until somewhere in the beginning of the 20th century, “Race” meant “Species” but that shifted around the time of a certain social justice movement that had good intentions but has become the loose cannon under the decks busting holes in the hull during storm seas.
What brought all of this out in me was a post by a friend. It was a meme stating that Doctors are the equivalent of the police against black women. It all came down to a link to a CDC doc stating that Black women in the US have a higher infant mortality rate per capita than white women. There were other breeds mentioned (people really hate that term since it seemingly makes us ‘animals’. Uh, yeah, guess what? WE ARE!!!) Like Inuit and others. I’m gonna touch on the Inuit first. Ever been to Alaska? Hint. IT’S BIG!!!. Lots and lots of open areas with few clumps of ‘city’. Medical care, especially out on the fringes may be non-existent. Higher infant mortality is likely to go hand and hand with that.
But back to article and the black side of it. In the US, there are more Black single mothers on welfare, by percentage of breed, than White. They have access to medical facilities, access that costs them little or nothing, and they have a higher infant mortality rate than whites do.
I’m betting that if you took only low income Whites on welfare, into the count, those numbers would likely get much closer to equal.
Lifestyle. Diet. Mental stability even.
I don’t see many Blacks in the area I live in. Of those I do see, THEY AREN’T ON WELFARE. But there are plenty of white families that are. If I go grocery shopping at the beginning of the month, I can spot the ones on welfare, not by appearance, but by food choices, and quantity. Crap, lots of processed, boxed meals, junkfood, and moonpies: usually covering 2 carts stacked to overflowing. One of those carts may be soda-pop only; over-loaded so much, you can hear the bearings starting to gall. As for personal appearance; usually pasty-skinned, grossly obese, and often quite odorous.
I’m not saying welfare is a bad thing, but I am saying generational welfare is. Many have been ‘hooked’ into easy money. And our welfare system has become a free-for-all that caters to failure. Dropped out of school because it was ‘too hard’ and can’t get a job because you completely lack any skill: sign up for the dole, Gubmints gonna hep ya out. Get busted for felonious assault and do 5 years in the Pen, can’t get a job ’cause of your record; same thing, gubmints gonna do ya right (till ya end up back in said pen)
So my question becomes this: you are being supported by the state, provided food, housing, medical care, etc; and infant mortality is the Doctors fault?
I cry Bull!!!
All of this, to me, is yet another symptom of the underlying disease that is eating the corpse of this country apart. This symptom is lack of personal responsibility, lack of accepting the consequences of personal decisions. No one holds a gun to your head when you’re scarfing down that crap food, or destroying your stomach lining by inhaling liter after liter of ‘pop’ (and I have been guilty of that in the past so I know where I am coming from)
It isn’t racism thats causing this, its poor decision making.
We may have a prejudice issue within these states, but that is a human nature condition, hardwired into us for survival and adapted by social conditions. For example. A gentleman just came into my shop asking if he could get some apples off the tree at the end of the driveway. Even offered to pay for ’em. No one around here pays for those apples and I wasn’t going to make him the exception. I even gave him a bag to put them in. BTW, he’s a Black man. Had on farmer john overalls°, I could smell soap when he stood near me talking, didn’t act like a thug and was polite (more polite than many white people I know!!!). His skin color had NOTHING to do with ANY PART OF OUR CONVERSATION and I assumed nothing about him based on said skin color. His overt politeness was likely due to past prejudiced conflicts, and I can fully understand that as I do know what this country has been like for decades.
But he found a friendly person in this Buckra. (Look it up. Its a real word)
Prejudicial treatment can be an issue, but then, if you look like a thug, walk like a thug and carry a bad attitude, why shouldn’t someone else assume you are a thug????
A duck is a duck is a duck, and no one can ever say its a dog. (Well, ya can but people are gonna give you funny looks)
And its not ONLY lack of personal responsibility; again, just a symptom IMO. That symptom is encouraged by the welfare state: why should you accept responsibility when the remainder of an entire society is picking up the tab to keep allowing you to suck air? Screw up with Johnny Law and do a small stint with three hots and a cot, then back out for more fun n games. Screw up and get pregnant? Well who cares who the daddy is if the state cuts a check and gives you a place to raise the kid. Why not do it again and double your income? Notice I am not pointing at whites or blacks or any one group in particular; I am blaming the SYSTEM!!!!!! There is a saying in politics “tax what you don’t want, subsidize what you do want”. So if they keep subsidizing failure, then they WANT people to fail. People stuck on the teat don’t strive, and that lack of ambition is the goal IMO.
So when People are whining about SYSTEMIC RACISM, they are whining about a system they continue to support, and likely because they are part of the system in some way.
Question EVERYTHING. The whole thing is a game and the rules are not ever in your favor. There is no free lunch; someone is paying for it, and it is NEVER the politicians that do.
° And to any yahoo that says ‘you saw those farmer johns and thought ‘he was being a good blackman”; you can kiss my hairy white ass. You’re thinking that shows your “racism”. Farmerjohn coveralls are common wear to many older southern rural people, white, black, or brown. And if you live north of the Tennessee/Kentucky zone, you probably have ZERO clue how little southerners have ‘racial’ issues. Especially amongst the older people (40+) and out away from the cities.
This ‘bear’ has been creeping up on me for awhile. Not real certain how it came to be, or if there is even a ‘fix’. But the problem is very obvious now.
The gunwales in Serena have warped and the entire boat now has a noticable twist from bow to stern. Seen on deck the bow leans to port where the stern deck leans to starboard. At the hull, the keel, which when I first skinned her was dead straight, now has an obvious ‘S’ shape and the cutwaters are leaning at odds to each other. Last time I had her on water was for rolling practice and she was quite damp inside after the fact. Being tied down to the rack probably helped keep things from being worse than they are (and a possible clue to a fix, maybe,,,)
She can be paddled, she will roll, but she is no longer the “Expedition class ” kayak. Sure, you could do it, and after a 1/2 mile, the correcting strokes would be as absent minded as my ex-wife, but you would feel it the next day. And getting into a ‘good’ boat would have you flustered in seconds until your hind-brain adapted again.
I’m tempted to try this and see if it fixes the issue. Fill her with water and let it soak in for a period of days/week. Drain it out and clamp in the rafters of an out building over the winter. Let the frame ‘relax’ by being wet then ‘train it’ with the clamping. Over the winter because the humidity slowly shifts from “scuba req’d” summer months to “dry out a mummy” winter chills.
That will likely be my course of action as I have time and money tied up in her . If it doesn’t work, I’ll strip the frame, clean it up and put in on the market as a conversation piece. I’ve seen yak frames in th Rafters of seafood places a time or two, and if she isn’t a good boat afloat, she can be a great wallflower for others to enjoy seeing.
I keep looking around, watching the world charts of what this bug is doing (if accurate, could go either way on that note) and watching what Government is doing here locally nationally etc. Still ain’t buying it. Something isn’t ringing true. Numbers aren’t adding up, reactions are grossly out of caliber for the end result to be justified.
Its not the disease thats scaring me, its the inintended consequences of government spasms in the name of “public safety”. Financially the economies are tanking. At current trend, and with the Fed poised to start buying up everything to keep the velocity of money up, we are looking at the next Weimar republic scene, only this time it will cover multiple continents. When the economies explode in hyperinflation, JIT delivery systems go tits up (if not sooner if the gov locks down every major city and restricts travel liberties) JIT goes tits up, and people are next in line, after they shred the remnants of whats on the shelves of every mom n pop store and walmart.
And all for what, some smoke n mirrors show of force? Like another blogger has stated. Let them have this much leeway for this disease, what’s to stop them for the next one, or the one after that, or putting the entire country into lockdown because of “whatever” being construed BY THEM as a public safety concern.
Coldfury excerpts CS Lewis in this post and I must agree with the premise. None of us, NONE escape death. We are born dying, surrounded by so many different death options from day one. This ‘new bug’ is just another in a long list of many, that MAY take you over to the next plane of existence. Suck it up because the odds are actually in your favor that it WON’T!!!! And lets face it; while dying scares purt much everybody, we all have to face it eventually. Yeah it sucks, isn’t pretty, usually painful, but it just IS. If its you, it truly sucks, if its someone close to you, it still sucks and should be counted as a trial run for when its your turn. And if its not someone you know, or are close to, breath a sigh of relief and get back to keeping on: you dodged the bullet this time, but there are more where that one came from and eventually,,,
But, for whatever reason, which completely escapes me unless my suspicions are correct, our
fearless Leaders that wanna Be, think they are protecting us.
The only ‘upside’ that I see right now? People are all becoming preppers. Recent trip to grocery showed a serious dent in stock of flour, beans, dry noodles, and other long term storage stuff that can make pretty much anything. The entire aisle of vegetable oils was bare, gone. Like I said to boss, if you have vegetable oil, flour and some salt and pepper, you can cook rat and make it taste like chicken. (Side note, there was toilet paper still on the shelf, just not much, LOL)
I’ve said it to several people in meatspace, in texts, even across VoIP; what I am seeing is, IMO, a cover for collapsing the economy so that defaults on obligations can take place without instigating retribution from creditors. It doesnt matter “who” created and released the bug, all the big players are responding in kind with similar actions and all of them are using it to scare the shit out of their own people.
And if I’m wrong? So what. If I’m right, so what. I’m just one little fish in a great big sea of fish. The bubbles I’m making, float away just like everybody elses.
It all comes down to being sick n tired of all the hype n negativity being amplified over the good in life. If you only live with venom and sewage, you see nothing else. Get out and try to see something good for once. Do it before they make it so you need permission or a badge, or whatever option the currently evolving police state we reside in comes up with. Cowering away in fear is pointless and pathetic.