A rare link from me, but in this case, I concur 110%.
The actual miracle is that we choose to kill so rarely, rather than every day being a Killing Fields obstacle course.
Very much so. I’ve stated many a time, if I were to go cold turkey on my nicotine addiction, the trail of bodies would stagger the imagination.
And mentioning the tunnel vision, auditory exclusion, and other aspects that arrive when the switch gets thrown,,, you’ll find that your memory of the immediate, right in front of you, will be a silent soundtrack that is Crystal Clear in HD and quite literally, nothing else. Pleas for mercy will go unheeded because your ears are turned off, but you will see EVERY! SINGLE!BLOOD!DROP! in slow motion for the rest of your days. I can tell you that from experience, not some shitlib read fest.
And if you have the tools in the brain, you’ll carry on with your days as if it were another day at the office, sleep like a baby, and know what yiu did was NECCESARY.
Don’t get me wrong, I understand PTSD is a real thing, and I have a few friends that are truly messed up with it. I try to understand it by looking at the way the samdboxes were ran, the fact that many were running back to back deployments sometimes barely fitting on one hands count. Or in one friends case, a combat nurse, non-stop 48 hour blood fests . Horrors on top of horrors compounded with sleep deprivation, bad diet ,,, yeah, thats a recipe for “fucked in the head”. Choosing to flip the switch vs being forced to deal with its aftermath can make a huge difference in psych trauma.
Aesop mentions Kyle not appearing remorse about things, but thats not entirely true. Crossing that line will ‘change you’, and the fact that Kyle did blubber some on the stand shows he feels something negative about what went down. Thats a good thing. If he didn’t feel something, I might be concerned: but I would bet a silver buck, that he sleeps the sleep of the righteous because he is still upright and breathing.
Maybe I am wrong in my assessment that few will be able to cross that line and survive mentally: Aesop is absolutely correct saying its hardwired into us. Theres damned good reason the hairless ape without claws or sharp teeth sits atop the pyramid; and it is not just because of our grey matter, but our instincts for being completely ruthless when need arises.
(Musta had the day off. Dio posted three times!!! Yup, total rain out)