Believe nothing, no matter where you read it, or who said it – no matter if I have said it! – except it agree with your own reason and your own common sense.” – Siddhartha Gautama, a.k.a. the Buddha

Unsettled, pt2

Time is money.

Only it isn’t.  We exchange money for our time, but ask yourself, seriously ask, ‘How much is one minute of my life worth?’.  I say that because of some of my recent unsettling has been around ‘work’ AKA ‘my day J.O.B.’.  Bossman and I having a butting of heads currently and if things continue, we both lose.  Except it may be the cord cutting I NEED to get shit rolling, on which case, it would be his loss, my gain.

You don’t “rent” your time out, like I have heard others say.  Renting means you still own the property rented.  When you ‘rent’ your time, its gone,  forever and ever, amen!  (And the person that invents a way to regain lost time,,,)  No, you don’t rent it, you sell it and usually to the lowest bidder (at that time) and what compensation you recieve,,,  How can you get ahead by selling to the lowest bidder?  Two words: You don’t.   Even those that manage to break out of the rat race don’t do it on the currency of “one good day job”.

The tiff is this. I let him and son know that I need to take a week off, two weeks out.  Today, there was ‘no work for me’, but he wanted me to give up my weekend for a job ‘that needs finished before the 4th’.  Plans have already been made, I could cancel the saturday thing no issues. But not the whole weekend,,, “don’t bother, if I cant have you both days I dont want you for either “

Somehow, me thinks when I go in monday, it will be to finish up a couple things that were on hold, (needing measurements or waiting for parts to return from powdercoater) loading my personal equipment and when my “week off” rolls around, just not coming back.  Just like a cat would do.  They purr, buzz and strop when they greet you, but when its time to go, just go.  No drama, no loss, just ‘git’.

I do not like being put into the position he has put me in where, I feel, he is trying to show he owns me.  He doesn’t,  his son knows it, and has curtailed this type of event before, but this time feels different.  Maybe Universe is pushing him, and me, into a showdown to make me take my leap of faith.  Maybe its Universes way of showing him that his ‘business model’ needs adjustments. (Like pay people something better than McDonalds wages and ya might attract better than recently released convicts and methheads, sometimes one and the same.)

Burning that bridge?  Yay and nay.  If I do, it will be my choice.  If I do jet, his son, the real owner, will be told before hand, and why.  And as I told another in a text message recent, the clients they have that they absolutely depend on ME for, already text or call me FIRST, because they already know I likely have an answer, and answer my phone or texts promptly.  In two cases, I don’t need to be on site to do most ‘fix it’ jobs; I can do most Diag through a phone app and usually its a simple reset (unless AT&T goes offline.  Then they are screwed and it doesn’t matter what I do.)

Yeah, my ‘job’ is a bit more complicated than “welder” and many mornings it takes longer to figure out which ‘hat’ I will be wearing than it does the actual work.  (Or as Son told a new guy recently, when asked ‘whats his job?’: ‘you guys build fences, he does everything else’

Thats a whole lot of eggs in one basket, and losing said basket,,,

That basket is worth a ton more than $12/hr,,,,

Yeah, I sold cheap because the set up, and what I ‘did’ was convenient to me.  The load has increased. But the pay has not.  And when someone wants to rub it in that ‘they own me’, um,,,

Not just No! But an “aw HELL NO!” with both guns drawn. And that is where I feel we are now.

I am the only ’employee’ he has that hasn’t asked for a midweek loan, the only ’employee’ that provides his own tools for work, etc etc etc.  I have never felt like an employee, but a mutual contractor, and have even berated the owner for stoopid losses that could have been avoided by a little judicious application of a couple brain cells. He has seen me calculate the costs of welding fabrication and point out to him that one project was bleeding cash only because he was basically giving away my efforts to the client.

Yeah I sold cheap, but I like(d) what I do(did) and a couple of the people there are as close to friends as I have locally.  That alone made the sell out worth something.

I think I have this ‘figgered out’, tanx for list’n’nn

6 responses

  1. Spud

    Sometimes it takes one leaving, to make them realize the value of the loss eh ?


    June 19, 2021 at 5:23 am

    • And sometimes leaving a nest is the best for all involved. Situations abound.


      June 19, 2021 at 5:30 am

  2. Ohio Guy

    It’s time you put those talents to use for somebody who is appreciative of the quality you provide. You are worth more than double that asshat pays you. He knows it, his son knows it, and you’ve known it. NOW, take action. AND, don’t be surprised when you get that phone call down the road, begging you to come back for $20 an hour. DON’T. HE needs to learn a hard lesson. NOT YOU. Don’t cut yourself short. You’re worth waaaay more. Trust me on this.


    June 19, 2021 at 10:00 am

    • Message rcvd, LOUD AN CLEAR,, Been here once’r’twice, (stubborn and submissive; bad combination) but older now and stubborn is winning out


      June 19, 2021 at 10:13 am

  3. Zekerinontario

    Wow 12.00 for the stuff you do that is cheap. I will be honest I don’t get out of bed for under 20.00 anymore. I have built my reputation and if you want to use it it will cost you. I ahve had “employeers” in the past try to use my good will and they burned my bridges. I no longer allow that. I agree with you be like the kiitahs. Leave and finds something better. If I give my time away fer free tooo much I am the one that looks stuuuupid. I did that at first to build my rep. I don’t adervertise anymore people come tooo me and I think the same will happen with you.


    June 21, 2021 at 10:14 am

    • I’m fast getting to where I’ll be there with you on what gets me moving and what gets the hairy eyeball. Incident today that reinforced my evolution but it may be made into a post instead of a comment


      June 21, 2021 at 4:05 pm

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