Believe nothing, no matter where you read it, or who said it – no matter if I have said it! – except it agree with your own reason and your own common sense.” – Siddhartha Gautama, a.k.a. the Buddha

Maybe I’m dense

But I just figured out the fear factor I have been observing.People are scared to death, of dying.(I’m being a touch sarcastic, bear with me,,,)

Now, to me, this makes very little sense. We are born with a death sentence. No one gets out of this life, alive. Period! End of discussion! I’ve been aware of my own mortality since early in 92. I saw death, face on, and knew, KNEW, I was given a gift in living through it. Every day since has been such a gift and I have lived as such. I enjoy waking in the morning and thinking about how I can do more living. As an example; I saw a t-shirt that summed it up very well. It said ” I don’t kayak to add years to my life, I kayak to add life to my years.”

Thats how I approach everyday. Its also in part why I have never achieved rousing success, wealth, or notoriety; I tend to bounce from one endeavor to the next.Its also why some people think I’m full of crap when they first meet me: they can’t believe I have done all the things I have. After all, everyone of us has the same number of hours in a day, I just choose to not spend mine in front of a programmer. When they see the backstage passes, the hand built kayaks, the hand built steam engine, the autographed pictures, the bookshelf full of so many different areas of study, the certifications and awards,,,,all in an off-grid home I designed and built,,,

But the fear of death just isn’t in me. I know I will die, eventually, and even have some idea of when, thanks to a genetic trait inherited from my mothers side. Barring outside forces, I have around 15 years left on the clock. Maybe more, maybe less, depending on my choices in taking care of this vehicle I inhabit. That doesn’t scare me. Hell, in many ways, I embrace it, and plan accordingly. Even if those outside forces end ‘me’ before that time, I’m ok with that too: I’ve had a hella good time, even when it sucked! I have no regrets about my life. I dont see death as the “end of the road”, I see it as the end of this part of life and the beginnings of a new one; a transitioning like the ‘death’ of a caterpiller is the birth of a butterfly.

But so many others freak out when the idea of dying flits across their mind. Is it because they have never really lived? Or that they haven’t led good lives and fear “meeting their maker” and his/her/its judgements? Or that they just have too much more to do yet? (I guess that one could be part of the first reason) Maybe they have children that are dependent upon them?(that one I have a better understanding for, but there are things that can be done and the here and now to alleviate that.) Maybe they just have not found their purpose in life? (This one IMO is why some fall to religous extremes so easily)

Maybe this scare will help some of those in fear wake up to it and ‘fix’ the problem. I can’t see anything wrong with more people getting out of the house and living life. Maybe the entertainment industry and advertisers would, but not me.Grizzykat agrees.

7 responses

  1. Kitty!! ❤ I agree in that I hope people use this as a wake up call to live life while you can.


    March 21, 2020 at 9:49 am

    • The Kitty is Griz. Big buzzy purrbox. The where this is all going is subject of the next several posts. one up, one scheduled and one in progress right now. I could just slam them all into existence right now, but I find it best to spread things out on a blog or posts end up getting buried and unread. keep an eye out, agree or not, but feel free to comment either way. Hell, disagree AND comment so that a discussion about it can take place (that’s a bleg by the way.)


      March 21, 2020 at 10:08 am

  2. Shelly

    Life is about living, learning, loving and laughing. I have had an awesome life and like you, lived a good life with lots of valuable moments that can not be taken away from me.
    Death? I’m not afraid. Just another transition to another place, time, rhelm, what have you.


    March 21, 2020 at 1:17 pm

    • And I know you have stared it in the face a time or two as well. Death isnt pretty, but it is an unavoidable fact.


      March 21, 2020 at 12:20 pm

  3. In many ways , you are a younger version of me…1976 was my turning point in life.
    Many high points, and lows…enough achievements and getting burned to turn off that tap.
    Yes in many ways the current dear leader is the perfect man for the job of bankrupting all the debt.
    Only been outside the compound a few times the past month. Last week to the VA, NEVER have I seen that hospital so devoid of anyone…
    Yesterday made a run to the feed and seed store, very busy place. Got what I needed tho. Usually they have several pallets of scratch and the same of cracked corn. I got the last two bags of each. That’ll keep my girls happy and making eggs for the next six months.
    My wife was informed that her job is secure for the next sixty days. She works at the zoo and even tho it is closed to the public , those critters still gotta eat…
    Wonder what happens if the quarantine applies to all ?
    Well stocked on all fronts at the homestead. Life is pretty much the same for me.


    March 22, 2020 at 6:46 am

    • I’m just waiting for work to dry up on me. It will as there are going to be more people without income here shortly, and if people aren’t buying, we aren’t making. It will hurt, but it won’t kill me. It may kill my credit score for awhile, but,,,
      Lots of yardbirds around here, some people still raising cattle in small amounts, too many damned horses, but that may be a blessing in disguise. There has been a lot of logging over the last few years, and due to that, and the disease ‘bluetongue’, deer herds are down, and like I told my sister, there are so many hunters around here, the herds would be near wiped out in a month if people felt they needed food that badly. Spring is nearly here, and people are putting in first plantings, so fresh stuff won’t be that long out. Still have some canned stuff so,,,
      Honestly, my biggest concern isn’t eating, or even making a living (what’s cash worth when there is nothing to buy?). My concern is the dregs of society that live on the teat of Uncle Sugar around here. There are tons of them, and when that starts to fizzle, and the supply of whatever they are addicted to dries up,,,
      I hope this thing wraps up soon, before the damage is irreversible. (and why lie, I’m torn on that note as a reset is long overdue.)


      March 22, 2020 at 9:47 am

      • Indeed the dregs will be an issue…but I believe all the yuppie scum whom have never wanted for anything in their fat assed sheltered lives. At least the poor know about going hungry and are used to making do.
        No , I fear an angry , hungry middle class,..


        March 23, 2020 at 7:15 am

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